hes gone...
well i havent updated much on here but i cant update on my myspace yet because my sister doesnt know this. my grampa is gone. God has finally taken him and relieved him of suffering. for that i am grateful and i know he's in a better place. however, it is still very very hard for me. some of you may have seen me react when i found out that he had cancer...well it was bad if you werent around.. and right now i doin ok but as soon as i get home it could be bad. im trying to be strong but i was very close to him and its hard to be the strong one. i already miss him so much. i love him with all my heart and i will never forget him and i will especially not forget the day i said my final goodbye. i wrote about that on my myspace (its the blog titled, final goodbyes) but anywho... theres so much i could say but its all just a bunch of jumble in my head right now. i found out a few short hours ago well actually like 1 1/2 hrs ago but whatever. i dunno i just had to get something out and this is easier for me than having to talk to someone. but i am going to go cuz i really want to go home. im still at work!! :( well good night and ill ttyl.