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[hmagdich]

inside of my soul there are dark and brooding spirits
itching to take control of my life for good
i fight this feeling....fight this pull toward evil
but it takes so much from my every day i can't see the light
what light?
there's a light?
if there is i've been away from it for so long i can't recognize it
i want it back.
i want to be a good person
i want to understand what it takes
i want to have a new beginning without fleeing again
it's time to go....but if i leave this time...it won't be good
i don't know if i can really fix an unknown problem....but there isn't an easy solution
i don't know if i can repair what would break if i took off now.
i need to start over
i need everyone to leave me alone
i need to be arouind everyone
why are there so many people who are smart enough to figure me out now and where have they been?
what a load.