Today
I left Kayli's becasue I started falling asleep in her bed. I came home and crashed, only I didn't realy sleep as much as I wallowed. Yeah, I slept but I just kept feeling like I was awake and coherent ans just trying really hard to pretend that this wasn't my life. As someone said, my life could be worse. I don't deny that, but too many parts of my life are unessecarily bad right now and if I can change that, I will.
To prove a point my best friend hung up on me and has failed to call back or answer when I call...I really don't know what his point was in doing that, but whatever it's over and I'll fix it tomorrow.
I spent part of the day crying and the other part thinking about why I was crying. I have figured out that my emotions are blown out of proportion--even happiness. When I am happy, I can be annoyingly happy. When I am sad, I cry and then usually throw up becasue I have a weak stomach. When I am angry, nothing comes out of my mouth right and I wind up hurting the people I care for. People say I am just oever-dramatic. I think there might just be more to it.
I was looking over my poetry from 8th grade--the year I was extemely depressed--and some of it scared me.
To prove a point my best friend hung up on me and has failed to call back or answer when I call...I really don't know what his point was in doing that, but whatever it's over and I'll fix it tomorrow.
I spent part of the day crying and the other part thinking about why I was crying. I have figured out that my emotions are blown out of proportion--even happiness. When I am happy, I can be annoyingly happy. When I am sad, I cry and then usually throw up becasue I have a weak stomach. When I am angry, nothing comes out of my mouth right and I wind up hurting the people I care for. People say I am just oever-dramatic. I think there might just be more to it.
I was looking over my poetry from 8th grade--the year I was extemely depressed--and some of it scared me.