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I just realized that I really miss my dad right now...but I shouldn't. I try not to think about him but things just remind me of him all the time and it sucks. I should be hating him right now, he is a jerk, not worth my time to cry over or to even be in my thoughts. But he's my dad, I love him, I just wish...he wasn't the way he was. He used to tell me all the time that he is going to get better for me...lie after lie and you would think that I would stop believing him. Friends and Family tell me to forget him, but they don't understand...I just need to hear his voice and make sure he is ok. I think I might call him in the next few days.