Emotionally destroyed
This weekend I went to Eindhoven to the viking market. It's the big event of the year. Sascha was there to so I was happy to see him but because he couldn't or would'n't put up his tent he decided that he would sleep with to friends from him but they were female friends. So I wasn't happy with that and we talked and he said he didn't knew that there was room in the farmhouse so he could sleep with me. Ok so we solved it and he slepped next to me. The next day was nice it was very hot and I walked around allot. Didn't see that man from me allot. Saterday night was the big party with free drinks and a band. I danced on the music. Haven't done that for allong time. I also drank way to mutch so sascha had to carry me to bed and I can't remember that. But I do remember that I met Ares a friend from sascha. He was very nice. The next morning I dídn't feel so well but I got out of bed in time. First I went for some coffee and I say Ares there. That was funny. Later that day he got hurt and had to go to the hospital that was not funny.
That evening I tryed to see Sascha but he was sitting with his friends and I didn't feel very welcom so I left and went to sit with people who do like me. Frisia :) When I went to the toilet I saw Ares again and asked him if he wanted to sit with us, he did. He couldn't drink alcohol but that was not a problem we talked allot and I asked him if he could sent me the photo's he made from swimming becaus I did that that day. It was cold and wet. I didn't drink allot that night because I could still feel the affect from saterday night. When everybody decided to go to bed I tryed to find Sascha again that wasn't difficult still behind the farmhouse with some friends of him. Still felt didn't wanted so I went to bed with out saying anything.
The next morning I decided I had it and wouldn't go and look for him anymore and suprise suprise I didn't see him al day. So he didnt tryed to find me. Luckely Corine was there to talk to and I knew I had to talk to him. But that was very difficult for me. Finally I did it and said I felt neglected and rejected and not only on events. He didn't say mutch he just hughed m,e and kissed me and then Oegan came to talk to us so I could'nt say all the thinks I wanted but I hoped he got the message. Wishfull thinking because it's still a man.
I send him an sms that I got home safely and I got one back. He asked me if I liked the weekend and he said that he would wright me next week. So he didn't listened to me.
Why don't they understand I need more then one message a week is that so difficult. I already hardly see him and I'm wondering if this is worth it.
That evening I tryed to see Sascha but he was sitting with his friends and I didn't feel very welcom so I left and went to sit with people who do like me. Frisia :) When I went to the toilet I saw Ares again and asked him if he wanted to sit with us, he did. He couldn't drink alcohol but that was not a problem we talked allot and I asked him if he could sent me the photo's he made from swimming becaus I did that that day. It was cold and wet. I didn't drink allot that night because I could still feel the affect from saterday night. When everybody decided to go to bed I tryed to find Sascha again that wasn't difficult still behind the farmhouse with some friends of him. Still felt didn't wanted so I went to bed with out saying anything.
The next morning I decided I had it and wouldn't go and look for him anymore and suprise suprise I didn't see him al day. So he didnt tryed to find me. Luckely Corine was there to talk to and I knew I had to talk to him. But that was very difficult for me. Finally I did it and said I felt neglected and rejected and not only on events. He didn't say mutch he just hughed m,e and kissed me and then Oegan came to talk to us so I could'nt say all the thinks I wanted but I hoped he got the message. Wishfull thinking because it's still a man.
I send him an sms that I got home safely and I got one back. He asked me if I liked the weekend and he said that he would wright me next week. So he didn't listened to me.
Why don't they understand I need more then one message a week is that so difficult. I already hardly see him and I'm wondering if this is worth it.