Jul 08, 2006 06:43
So I'd just like to say that all guys are scum. I'd elaborate but it's far too ridiculous a story to even tell....yes folks I said rIdiculous, with an "I" cause that's how it's spelled. Anyway I don't know why but I'm still totally intrigued with him even though I know he's at least been a bastard to some other girls. Why do I always like the bastards? Did I not get enough bullshit from the last one? I'm so fuckin weird sometimes. Oh and I need some opinions, ok, when I'm not in love with someone anymore I don't have urges to be with them or have sex with them or whatever and I feel completely different about them, like a friend....is that how everyone feels? Can you not be in love with someone and still wonder if you want to be with them and still can't keep their hands off them? Basically this makes no sense to me....maybe it's yet another guy thing I'll never understand, but I'd still like to see what you guys think. In other news I miss my friends. I seriously work so much...so much in fact it's only flippin 6:45am and I'm writing in lj cause I gotta be to work at 7:30 AHHHHHH! Sara I miss you a ton, I can't get to el anytime soon babe, as far as I know it will be at least 2 more weeks and even then I dunno how much longer it could be. Thank goodness for my goosie. I felt like we grew apart a little bit there for a while and it really freaked me out cause goosie is like my other half but since summer started I feel like everything is good again and it makes me soooo happy! I hope we never grow apart again, but if we do I hope this happens and we fix it. There are a few friends I haven't really talked to much lately, and I miss them but like I said I work a lot and I think a few are pissed at me cause I never have time for them. Trust me guys I wish I had more time for you. Ugh I can't stop thinking about this boy. I'm not even sure why he sparks my interest, all I know is I started out completely indifferent and now it's kind of intense....it's freakin me out a little. No worries though I have my bastard radar on and if anything starts pointing out that he's just the scum of the earth, which he could be, then he's gone for sure. After everything with JV I've kinda learned to separate myself enough so I wont get so hurt. I just hope I learned my lesson. Ugh now I gotta go to work...I love my job but nothing that starts at 7:30am can get me too pumped lol. Goosie call me I get out at 2 for a change woo!