Kinda Late...

[hlalover813]

- Why, Why do you think that you can use me and I wont care, why do you think you can talk behind my back and I wont find out. I dont get it. You freaking use me left and right and still I have feelings for you and I want to be with you. I dont get it. I cant control the way i feel just like you couldnt when you stopped liking me, but you took the easy way out. you didnt get your heartbroken, no sir ee that was all me. You had another chick that liked you and she "liked" you. Well not me i moped aroud for a couple weeks and felt bad. Well im not going to anymore. You have caused me so much pain, more pain then i have ever felt and then you have the nerve to call me tonight when she is off making out with another dude, did u really think that i wasnt going to find out,come on i may be blonde but im not dumb. I cant take it anymore im sick of red eyes im sick of never really truley being happy like i was when we were "together". Well we were never together, we never OFFICIALLY went out, but it was close enough. Why did I ever agree to the whole "Friends with benefits" thing I shouldve known that i was going to end up getting hurt. Maybe none of this is your fault. I basically put all the pain on myself. I was the one who told you she liked you, why would i do that,? I dont know beets me, but I did. maybe i didnt think that you were going to start liking her. Whatever the reason may be i told you and i basically screwed myself over. I still to this day dont know why i still have feelings for you. Its not that you are all that great, you talk behind my back to some of my closet friends and you really think that i wont find out. Why, Why after all the pain and the heartache do i still like you? i dont get it. I really dont get anything anymore. I have a guy an awesome guy that likes me right now, and yet all i can think about is you, all the time. I dont know why, i hate it i hate that you got over me so quickly and just expect me to follow, well if you havent noticed I am a chick, with feelings, I bleed when i am cut and i cry when i am sad, and with all of that why do people still feel the need to treat me like crap? I dont get it. When i start thinknin about this one thing leads to the next and i eventually start crying again. I dont want to cry anymore i dont think that i have many tears left.
--Why cant life be simple, why cant everything just be happy. I watch all these T.V shows and they make everything look so easy. I remember as a youngin' I couldnt wait to get into High School I always thought that these years were going to be the best in my life, I wanted to grow up so quikly and in many ways i have. I just wish that i could turn back time, and cherish all the little memories of growing up.