alone in Beijing.

[hk_snow]

First time in Beijing!!! Alone at that! After coming to Beijing yesterday, it is the first time that I have realised all those things that I had taken for granted, was so precious and temporary. The first moment I stepped into Beijing, I was alone. Everything that I had up until I boarded the airplane for Beijing, was gone. I had no contact with the outside world, no family, no friends, nothing. I never realised how reliant I was on others till I got here. I had to plan and do things for myself. I also had to speak in a foriegn language which luckily I could slightly understand. I always liked to fashion myself as an independent person, but how wrong I was. I was no where near independent, I was just a person who was reliant upon everyone to help me plan for me. As my father said to me when I called him in tears upon arriving in Beijing "Up until yesterday you were treated like a princess, but now you are nothing more then a speck in Beijing who must fight to survive for yourself." Luckily I'm not that insignificant (I hope).
Sorting out uni things have been a pain and finally got hooked up with internet just now. Communicating is extremely difficult as no one speaks any English. My whole dorm is full of Koreans and my roomie is Korean too. She seems nice enough, but still feeling extremely homesick and sad. Every time talk to my parents or Anthony, I start to cry. Sighhhhhhhh :(
On the upside, I was welcomed with the sight of snow this morning! I SAW SNOW FALLING FOR THE FIRST TIME!!! :3