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I hate to come bitching on here and I always feel so silly when I read it back to myself but I feel like I have no one that I can say this to:
FUUUUUCKKKKKKK.
I just had one of those weird blank head bulimia moments in which I decided to rally together a group of people to go to pizza hut (??), despite not being hungry and being convinced that I would NOT binge today. I then proceeded to eat I'm sure you can imagine how much cheesey crust pepperoni feast pizza, and other random yummy binge things.
how wonderful you say, what a lovely binge, whats the problem? The problem is that I assumed my next door roommate girl wouldn't be around because shes NEVER around and that it would be totally fine to purge and blah blah no problemo on with my lovely life. But she's here, and when I tried to go to the public-y bathrooms in my building there were other people in there, and now I just feel totally stuck and fuck fuck fuck fuck.
Does anyone know how the hell you just SIT with a binge and just deal with it? Because my brain is going totally haywire right now and I feel like Im going to have a nervous breakdown over some stupid pizza binge.
This all feels so silly but I'm genuinely really really upset. and its not about breaking my anAz fast or even about my weight, its just about how fucking awful it feels to sit here and feel totally powerless.
FUUUUUCKKKKKKK.
I just had one of those weird blank head bulimia moments in which I decided to rally together a group of people to go to pizza hut (??), despite not being hungry and being convinced that I would NOT binge today. I then proceeded to eat I'm sure you can imagine how much cheesey crust pepperoni feast pizza, and other random yummy binge things.
how wonderful you say, what a lovely binge, whats the problem? The problem is that I assumed my next door roommate girl wouldn't be around because shes NEVER around and that it would be totally fine to purge and blah blah no problemo on with my lovely life. But she's here, and when I tried to go to the public-y bathrooms in my building there were other people in there, and now I just feel totally stuck and fuck fuck fuck fuck.
Does anyone know how the hell you just SIT with a binge and just deal with it? Because my brain is going totally haywire right now and I feel like Im going to have a nervous breakdown over some stupid pizza binge.
This all feels so silly but I'm genuinely really really upset. and its not about breaking my anAz fast or even about my weight, its just about how fucking awful it feels to sit here and feel totally powerless.