Journal Entry 1?
Okay, so i figure i might as well attempt to start one of these things. So here goes nothing.
I've come to realize that i may be awhile before i go to the states, more so take in the factor of it being 3 years in the making, and the heartful pain my friends have to endure for this as well. Staying on that topic, i figure is probably the major reason i didn't make a band yet, out of fear of leaving my band mates behind and not being able to help them out in anyway.
Past that, it landed up happening where i started hanging out with my old ex band mate Red (nick names are good to protect identities) but it seems that he's worth then before and with that in mind, it may be pretty much a butcher for me to even start a band with him. Taking drugs himself way to much and more on that line, really messed him up, and put a bigger rift in our already destroyed friendship. Which happened cause he punched a girl in the face. Which i can't say he really did since i wasn't their to confirm it, but i figure if my good friend G saw it, and confirms it, its pretty much down to earth on that part.
Wow, people really write these huh? haha well anyways i've also come to the conclusion that once i move to the states im going to need a way to stay calm and not kill my family (whom im staying with only cause they said they'd pay for my way to the states since they are moving there as a group haha). When i say kill by the way, i don't mean it literally =D i mean it as a random word to describe my deep anger towards them as beings.
Anyways, i am sure that i'll be able to get my life together at some point O.O hopefully i'll have some band mates willing to try out jrock and vk style things (and hopefully i will have purchased my guitar amp and pedal haha) then we could try out other things like original stuff. i have way to many written death metal songs so im sure i can do something with those :P
Well that was my thoughts and recalls of the day, since all i did was walk with Blood all day, and hung out with him i figure its all good for a boring day that ended somewhat in thought =D.
Ja~Ne ,
Hizumi
I've come to realize that i may be awhile before i go to the states, more so take in the factor of it being 3 years in the making, and the heartful pain my friends have to endure for this as well. Staying on that topic, i figure is probably the major reason i didn't make a band yet, out of fear of leaving my band mates behind and not being able to help them out in anyway.
Past that, it landed up happening where i started hanging out with my old ex band mate Red (nick names are good to protect identities) but it seems that he's worth then before and with that in mind, it may be pretty much a butcher for me to even start a band with him. Taking drugs himself way to much and more on that line, really messed him up, and put a bigger rift in our already destroyed friendship. Which happened cause he punched a girl in the face. Which i can't say he really did since i wasn't their to confirm it, but i figure if my good friend G saw it, and confirms it, its pretty much down to earth on that part.
Wow, people really write these huh? haha well anyways i've also come to the conclusion that once i move to the states im going to need a way to stay calm and not kill my family (whom im staying with only cause they said they'd pay for my way to the states since they are moving there as a group haha). When i say kill by the way, i don't mean it literally =D i mean it as a random word to describe my deep anger towards them as beings.
Anyways, i am sure that i'll be able to get my life together at some point O.O hopefully i'll have some band mates willing to try out jrock and vk style things (and hopefully i will have purchased my guitar amp and pedal haha) then we could try out other things like original stuff. i have way to many written death metal songs so im sure i can do something with those :P
Well that was my thoughts and recalls of the day, since all i did was walk with Blood all day, and hung out with him i figure its all good for a boring day that ended somewhat in thought =D.
Ja~Ne ,
Hizumi