*sigh*

[hiyameshi]

I feel like dying nothing ever works out it my life. I dont understand anything... I have nothing to live for i should just dissapear... not that anyone would care... being lied to hurts... i thought it wouldnt hurt but it gradually gotten worse... it hurts to look back... because the one thing i thought i understood was really a lie... I want to move forward... but i need to know why... why i had to go down this path... and better yet why did i keep going down it... i thought it was the best path i enjoyed it but it seems i was just on a tredmill with the scenery repeating it self... but as i finally realized the truth.. and ripped down all the lies... it was where i started... but everything i believed was all that i knew... i found myself not knowing what to do... and as i find myself standing here ignorant of whats going on deep down i understand... i will choose to go down the path carefree and hopefully everything i believed will be all that i need and in the end will turn out not to be a lie.. after all... or atleast thats what i hope...
Dont ask i know its confusing and makes no sense
~:+:Ryu:+:~