i could of SWORN you believd in me..
As I'm sitting here, drinking my chocolate soy milk, I realized that I had a lot of stuff on my mind, & a (non emo ranting entry ) would be perfect.
duh.
As cliche'd as it is, I've realized how much music IS my life. And with it being my life, I've realized how much I've changed through it.
As early as december, I was just this naive little kid, who thought "going to A CONCERT a month would be awsome". So I happily went to one that december, 2! that January, and one that Febuary.
Then, in April, I met Jimmy, and everything became..diffrent.
Suddenly I was going to TONS of shows a month, even a week. I was meeting people that girls would KILL for, and I treated it as if it was no big deal, since It (has and STILL is ) happening to me all the time.
I met SO many wonderful people though those shows (some who I'm suuuper close with), that these people I spent not even 12 hours with, have become some of my newest friends. Yes, I even met someone..who I did something with, which nothing came out of and I'm fine. Actually the only to thing to come out of it is awkardness at shows, unless I'm the only one feeling it.
Looking back on even last year, I cant believe how stupid I was.
(early last year) I wore my hot topic regalia with pride, listend to "omfgz NU METAL", claimed to be diffrent than the millions of other kids who looked like me, lusted over almost 40 year old men, and thought the world was PERFECT.
But then I was introduced into "the scene" and had my eyes opened. I realized I was being such a stupid little immature asshole. I wasnt diffrent than anyone else. The music I was listening to sucked & all sounded the same. I went to maybe 3 shows a year at GIANT areans and thought it was amazing.
Now I KNOW theres diffrence. I can't go more than a week without a show. AT shows, it seems I know at least one person there, everytime. The music has variaton, diffrence & a message.
Not only has it changed the social outlook of my life, it's just..made me a better person (HELL YEAH. ANYONE ELSE LOVE OVERDONE CLICHED GENERALIZATIONS?!)
Yeah, I used to drink. I'll be the first one to admit that it's the stupidest thing around. Now I'm fighting to get my Drug Free hoodie back.
And it's not only music that I've changed through.
As of tomorrow, It's going to be a week since..I got it done.
also starting tomorrow, I'm going Vegan with Angela. I would of never thought that, the girl I was in 8th grade, would be me today. A 15 year old vegan who plasters PETA stickers everywhere & yells at people to go veg.
Speaking of age, an "important" birthday is coming up, as people like to call it.
16th birthday.
yay?!
But with another birthday comes another party, and let me tell you. I suck at having birthday partys. For the past few years It was me, 3 friends. We would rent movies & drink. (last two for that part. ). Now this year I have no idea WHAT I want to do, and who I want to invite.
Damn you MTV for putting pressure on us for making our 16th's grand.
So there, theres the end of my rant.
Now if you exscuse me, I'm going to go grab some vegan cookies & a stack of Molly Ringwald movies.
duh.
As cliche'd as it is, I've realized how much music IS my life. And with it being my life, I've realized how much I've changed through it.
As early as december, I was just this naive little kid, who thought "going to A CONCERT a month would be awsome". So I happily went to one that december, 2! that January, and one that Febuary.
Then, in April, I met Jimmy, and everything became..diffrent.
Suddenly I was going to TONS of shows a month, even a week. I was meeting people that girls would KILL for, and I treated it as if it was no big deal, since It (has and STILL is ) happening to me all the time.
I met SO many wonderful people though those shows (some who I'm suuuper close with), that these people I spent not even 12 hours with, have become some of my newest friends. Yes, I even met someone..who I did something with, which nothing came out of and I'm fine. Actually the only to thing to come out of it is awkardness at shows, unless I'm the only one feeling it.
Looking back on even last year, I cant believe how stupid I was.
(early last year) I wore my hot topic regalia with pride, listend to "omfgz NU METAL", claimed to be diffrent than the millions of other kids who looked like me, lusted over almost 40 year old men, and thought the world was PERFECT.
But then I was introduced into "the scene" and had my eyes opened. I realized I was being such a stupid little immature asshole. I wasnt diffrent than anyone else. The music I was listening to sucked & all sounded the same. I went to maybe 3 shows a year at GIANT areans and thought it was amazing.
Now I KNOW theres diffrence. I can't go more than a week without a show. AT shows, it seems I know at least one person there, everytime. The music has variaton, diffrence & a message.
Not only has it changed the social outlook of my life, it's just..made me a better person (HELL YEAH. ANYONE ELSE LOVE OVERDONE CLICHED GENERALIZATIONS?!)
Yeah, I used to drink. I'll be the first one to admit that it's the stupidest thing around. Now I'm fighting to get my Drug Free hoodie back.
And it's not only music that I've changed through.
As of tomorrow, It's going to be a week since..I got it done.
also starting tomorrow, I'm going Vegan with Angela. I would of never thought that, the girl I was in 8th grade, would be me today. A 15 year old vegan who plasters PETA stickers everywhere & yells at people to go veg.
Speaking of age, an "important" birthday is coming up, as people like to call it.
16th birthday.
yay?!
But with another birthday comes another party, and let me tell you. I suck at having birthday partys. For the past few years It was me, 3 friends. We would rent movies & drink. (last two for that part. ). Now this year I have no idea WHAT I want to do, and who I want to invite.
Damn you MTV for putting pressure on us for making our 16th's grand.
So there, theres the end of my rant.
Now if you exscuse me, I'm going to go grab some vegan cookies & a stack of Molly Ringwald movies.