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i fear that i will become an increasingly unpleasant, hateful person if i don't start demanding that i be treated with the respect, effort and appreciation i deserve.
but i cant stop the voice that keeps asking IF I DESERVE IT THEN WHY DO I NEED TO ASK FOR IT? SHOULDN'T IT BE GIVEN TO ME SIMPLY BECAUSE I DESERVE IT?
that may be erroneous but it makes perfect sense to me.
I am not treated with the things i deserve... therefore i must not actually deserve those things.
i don't have time to reflect on this anymore tonight because i'm heading over to parker's to toke my feelings away... but to summarize: i have not been feeling very good about myself at all lately.
And so I turn to you, trusty LiveJournal.
but i cant stop the voice that keeps asking IF I DESERVE IT THEN WHY DO I NEED TO ASK FOR IT? SHOULDN'T IT BE GIVEN TO ME SIMPLY BECAUSE I DESERVE IT?
that may be erroneous but it makes perfect sense to me.
I am not treated with the things i deserve... therefore i must not actually deserve those things.
i don't have time to reflect on this anymore tonight because i'm heading over to parker's to toke my feelings away... but to summarize: i have not been feeling very good about myself at all lately.
And so I turn to you, trusty LiveJournal.