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I don't want to repeat myself again, but whereever I look from the last few years, that's the only thing I can do. Though it's repetition with variation (haha, why does this sound soo familiar? oh I know, that book about adaptation studies... that's what should take up all of my time nowadays... but the problem is...) So yeah, some new 'ingredient' always comes up. And this time it feels pretty weird. Instead of getting it together, I seem to be losing myself more and more. And I so don't need to be warned that I'm going in such a wrong direction. I'm afraid of the consequences... of everything I do or not do. But still, there definitely existed times when I wasn't like this. So..
I wanted to go into details about how I've ruined my weekend (a beautiful weekend here at the dorm before the 'big' holiday) by not doing anything and constantly feeling guilty because of it, but still not doing anything. But I won't (go into details, I mean)^^
By the way, very btw, I'm starting to not like this layout so much.
Alright, one more guilty action on Tuesday/rather Monday, and I'll really start anew. Hoping I won't have to regret it later, will I?
More or less, that's it. Let's say, less.
(in order to survive, I must stay here, or at least somewhere near here) (and by 'here' I don't refer to lj, naturally^^) by
I wanted to go into details about how I've ruined my weekend (a beautiful weekend here at the dorm before the 'big' holiday) by not doing anything and constantly feeling guilty because of it, but still not doing anything. But I won't (go into details, I mean)^^
By the way, very btw, I'm starting to not like this layout so much.
Alright, one more guilty action on Tuesday/rather Monday, and I'll really start anew. Hoping I won't have to regret it later, will I?
More or less, that's it. Let's say, less.
(in order to survive, I must stay here, or at least somewhere near here) (and by 'here' I don't refer to lj, naturally^^) by