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I suppose I should post and explain myself so that people don't think I hate them or I'm antisocial.
I'm really feeling overwhelmed at the moment to to environmental stress factors and personal stress factors. First and foremost I have my first real 'do this on your own project'. It's a well problem and it's complicated due to factors in play that are going to make ascertaining any cause to be hard. It doesn't help that my department is now 456 million dollars in the red and making budget cuts. I can't get any physical labor done due to this really and there's the possiblity of paycuts, furloughs (which are a given now), and lastly they're talking maybe 500 max layoffs. This comes at a time when I'm still dealing with the death of a loved one and when I'm about to start making car payments. Now the layoffs are not definate. And I know this. I also know my job is not a easy one to cut due to the fact I advise people across the state. It's still worrysome.
Secondly the economy, gas crunch, etc. are starting to get to me. Now I don't mind talking about the causes and what we can do. But personally talking about the collapse of society is not something I can at the moment. I'm having to live the problem. My purpose at this point is to making through and talking about that is not helpful in the least. I think people are mistaking my frustration and tiredness for being mad. I'm not mad and I don't think people are jerks for talking about it in any way. I'm kind of being backed into the corner and when I am I'm not a chatty person. I want relief. I had a big stress (explosion) headache today. Frankly I swear I'm going to get an anruyism from these things as much as they are popping up.
I think I'm giving people the wrong impression that I'm put out. I'm not honestly. I'd tell people if it was. And I'm worried this is making people think I don't care about what they say or think. I do care. I will admit that I can't concentrate at the moment. Sometimes things aren't clicking and frankly I don't like it myself. I'll sit there and try to figure something out and be thinking in the completely opposite direction. Like determining stress/strain points (I know. Irony) at work when I was going a completely roundabout way of converting a measure of soil density into a measure of pressure. I feel so dumb and useless lately I figure I'm not of much use to anyone.
So you know. I'm sorry I'm being difficult and not understanding like I should be.
I'm really feeling overwhelmed at the moment to to environmental stress factors and personal stress factors. First and foremost I have my first real 'do this on your own project'. It's a well problem and it's complicated due to factors in play that are going to make ascertaining any cause to be hard. It doesn't help that my department is now 456 million dollars in the red and making budget cuts. I can't get any physical labor done due to this really and there's the possiblity of paycuts, furloughs (which are a given now), and lastly they're talking maybe 500 max layoffs. This comes at a time when I'm still dealing with the death of a loved one and when I'm about to start making car payments. Now the layoffs are not definate. And I know this. I also know my job is not a easy one to cut due to the fact I advise people across the state. It's still worrysome.
Secondly the economy, gas crunch, etc. are starting to get to me. Now I don't mind talking about the causes and what we can do. But personally talking about the collapse of society is not something I can at the moment. I'm having to live the problem. My purpose at this point is to making through and talking about that is not helpful in the least. I think people are mistaking my frustration and tiredness for being mad. I'm not mad and I don't think people are jerks for talking about it in any way. I'm kind of being backed into the corner and when I am I'm not a chatty person. I want relief. I had a big stress (explosion) headache today. Frankly I swear I'm going to get an anruyism from these things as much as they are popping up.
I think I'm giving people the wrong impression that I'm put out. I'm not honestly. I'd tell people if it was. And I'm worried this is making people think I don't care about what they say or think. I do care. I will admit that I can't concentrate at the moment. Sometimes things aren't clicking and frankly I don't like it myself. I'll sit there and try to figure something out and be thinking in the completely opposite direction. Like determining stress/strain points (I know. Irony) at work when I was going a completely roundabout way of converting a measure of soil density into a measure of pressure. I feel so dumb and useless lately I figure I'm not of much use to anyone.
So you know. I'm sorry I'm being difficult and not understanding like I should be.