Forget December
I hate nights like this. Today was an ok day, I had an alright "speed" workout. I put that in quotes because I am not that speedy unfortunately. And last night was awesome because I slept over my Aunts and hung out with my beautiful cousins,but tonight fucken sucks.
Can I describe exactly why I feel like shit? no, But being here is part of the reason. I love my family, but I really don't feel like i belong. My dad has learned how to take care of his mom and wife, and I feel like i just jumped into the picture. Maybe when Ana gets here it will be better, I can only wish....
My Old boss called today and I told her I couldnt work because I am so far away. I think that was a mistake. Olympia hasn't called me yet. I hate being unemployed. Id gladly drive an hour twice a week to work there because I will be in Ledyard to see my friends anyways. Stupid Sophie strikes again.
I need to play my guitar. I haven't really played for a substantial amount of time since the summer. Thats weird. Now that I dont have any vocal music to practice, or homework to do, i Think im gonna work hard to improve my skills. Because right now i suck. I started to get kinda good, but that all went down the drain. gggrrrrrrrr
I NEVER THOUGHT ID SAY THIS BUT I MISS LEDYARD! Well maybe not ledyard....but i miss the people there, and my room there, and Valentinos, and....sigh...I am in need of "War all of the time" at this moment..
Can I describe exactly why I feel like shit? no, But being here is part of the reason. I love my family, but I really don't feel like i belong. My dad has learned how to take care of his mom and wife, and I feel like i just jumped into the picture. Maybe when Ana gets here it will be better, I can only wish....
My Old boss called today and I told her I couldnt work because I am so far away. I think that was a mistake. Olympia hasn't called me yet. I hate being unemployed. Id gladly drive an hour twice a week to work there because I will be in Ledyard to see my friends anyways. Stupid Sophie strikes again.
I need to play my guitar. I haven't really played for a substantial amount of time since the summer. Thats weird. Now that I dont have any vocal music to practice, or homework to do, i Think im gonna work hard to improve my skills. Because right now i suck. I started to get kinda good, but that all went down the drain. gggrrrrrrrr
I NEVER THOUGHT ID SAY THIS BUT I MISS LEDYARD! Well maybe not ledyard....but i miss the people there, and my room there, and Valentinos, and....sigh...I am in need of "War all of the time" at this moment..