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so today was well a terrible day. lately i have just been so uncontroably happy, and i wasnt quite sure why.(well yes i think i no why).but ever since this week started, i had a converstation with someone(hey girl) which really made me think. The other day when i was driving on Townline making my sister jen, and danielle laugh hysterically, jen said"this is exactly why you dont have a boyfriend!!!"...and it made me think...well if guys dont want to date a girl that makes them laugh...then i either have a problem, or im ognna have ot change myself. I dont think its right for a girl to change the way she is, or change there personality for anyone, but what do you do, or think when a person says that the reason why oyu odnt have a boyfriend is, ________. you fill in the blank. It just really made me think, my sister saying that to me was kind of a shot down to me, but made me think alot. I like the way i am, im weird, but i like making people laugh, and if thats whats holding me back from being in a relationship with someone, well then im just speechless. I never ever thought that the reason i could never hold on to a relationship with someone would be because of myself. Whether its true or not, i dont no. All i know is that the one thing i want most, i have never really had, and just thinking that its because of me, really really sucks.
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