what kind of crazy?
I am going crazy from anger.
I no longer recognize myself. My body is foreign and my face a stranger's. My stomach has grown a mind of its own and has begun waging a war.
I no longer feel like me.
I feel empty, used, betrayed and stupid.
Most of all I just feel mad.
How can I get over this anger and let myself live?
Do I get rid of all the people I can't stand? What if that's impossible?
Am I just angry over being lied to?
Yes. Among other things.
I have begun to lose my mind.
On the inside I feel as if I have started withdrawing, leaving my brain on auto-pilot to deal with the rest.
I know I am not well.
Nor am I truly happy.
I must go away.
I have to for everyone as well as me.
I have to find the quickest way out.
I must.
I will.