The Realization

[hit_the_kirb]

So, I saw Owen for the first time in three months yesterday. I admit, I had butterflies in my stomach driving to his house. I didn't know how I would feel seeing him again. Last I saw him I was still not over him. Well, I'm officially over it. It was the weirdest feeling. We hung out and it was fine, but there was a slight lack of things to say, I have no idea why. He cracked a few jokes, some appreciated, some not. I think he still sees me as this person who was always in a "mood" and hard to deal with. I have put a lot of stuff behind me, but Owen wasn't around, so he brings old stuff back up without knowing or realizing it. That bothered me a little bit. It's like he thinks he knows me better than he really does. I have changed so much this year.

Of course I feel nothing but love for Owen, but yesterday was the first time, face to face, I'm not in love with him at all. I remember what it felt like to be in love with him, but no remnant of those feelings returned like I thought they might. I am free. It will be nice to hang out this summer, if he can. The Fifields are not going to be in their house for much longer so the distance of the new house may make seeing Mr. O a little difficult.

Now, I will finish one late assignment to turn in online...argh. Then sign my payroll forms for my two internships. Then go shopping for a quality camera bag, as the one I am currently using is a piece of crap from the 80s that doesn't protect my camera at all.

Then plans for the Cities visit will commence! I'm so excited about that, but I have written about that enough.