a letter from far away.
i recieve journals from christy head as she travels around the united states. the most recent one was sent from a place right outside
Montauk...
and i dont think shell mind me sharing..i just felt it needed to be shared.
"Oh kelley kelley,
The days and nights lately have been cold and lonely and nothing that mattered was okay. i'm smoking some really good indian ciggareetes right now, ill send you some one day. there were so many nights when i had nothing left-i missed you so much, you would have made it okay despite the cold and infinite issues and distractions in my mind. I'm listening to dashboard confessional in an RV in Tony Garachi's backard. I felt for a breif moment that lve never been happier. I felt ALMOST at home, and thats a really big accomplishment for myself in that department. I had to go through what sometimes seems like hell to get to this particular feeling. I know what im fighting for and there arent any words for it....
Sometimes i have visions of things that i cant wait to show you. IM SO GLAD YOURE ALIVE. you know the first time Tim and i started meeting eachothers souls we would tell eachother how glad and thankfull that we were just merely alive on this planet..and for three days straight we were intoxicated by one anothers exisistance, we were mezmorized, shocked, full of even more life than we always knew existed. before we met eachother wed always dreamed of how being completely in Love and needing nothing more than the feeling present when we are simply next to eachother..like such a far away untouchable dream comming true for me the first time ever and always, just speaking of the first days we knew of eachothers exsistance overwhelms me to lengths honestly unimaginalbe to even myself up to this point ive reached right now with him by my side. maybe ill be lucky enough to speak to you about it after the first days, after the magic really really started sinking in.
this is honestly truth-no matter how many lies exist within...they could never camoflage this wonderous dance..
I know the exact moment i fell in love with him...every dteail of it, i can still feel it in my bones and i will forever. forever kelley. i know this. something special happend-one of my many dreams has come true. i am so thankful for that, just like you. and i will fight for that in my mind until the day i keep living again. i want to speak to you of things much greater than what i wocument on these papers..but they deserve action they really do.
He tells me everytime i look at him my pupils get uncontrollably HUGE...it must be true because now i can feel it....
ill never forget where youre at.
REMEMBER that day like a distinct taste in your mouth...the day we went to the park in gainsville by my mothers house..the grassy knoll..the ONE lady..the beautiful trails surrounded by no one playing golf, DRENCHING ourselves in ice cold water from the big plastic orange fountains reserved for golfers. the music-the yeah yeah yeahs..
remember that?
REMEMBER THE ATMOSPHERE..like the first time i fell in love. i do.
like how florida makes me feel."
<3
Montauk...
and i dont think shell mind me sharing..i just felt it needed to be shared.
"Oh kelley kelley,
The days and nights lately have been cold and lonely and nothing that mattered was okay. i'm smoking some really good indian ciggareetes right now, ill send you some one day. there were so many nights when i had nothing left-i missed you so much, you would have made it okay despite the cold and infinite issues and distractions in my mind. I'm listening to dashboard confessional in an RV in Tony Garachi's backard. I felt for a breif moment that lve never been happier. I felt ALMOST at home, and thats a really big accomplishment for myself in that department. I had to go through what sometimes seems like hell to get to this particular feeling. I know what im fighting for and there arent any words for it....
Sometimes i have visions of things that i cant wait to show you. IM SO GLAD YOURE ALIVE. you know the first time Tim and i started meeting eachothers souls we would tell eachother how glad and thankfull that we were just merely alive on this planet..and for three days straight we were intoxicated by one anothers exisistance, we were mezmorized, shocked, full of even more life than we always knew existed. before we met eachother wed always dreamed of how being completely in Love and needing nothing more than the feeling present when we are simply next to eachother..like such a far away untouchable dream comming true for me the first time ever and always, just speaking of the first days we knew of eachothers exsistance overwhelms me to lengths honestly unimaginalbe to even myself up to this point ive reached right now with him by my side. maybe ill be lucky enough to speak to you about it after the first days, after the magic really really started sinking in.
this is honestly truth-no matter how many lies exist within...they could never camoflage this wonderous dance..
I know the exact moment i fell in love with him...every dteail of it, i can still feel it in my bones and i will forever. forever kelley. i know this. something special happend-one of my many dreams has come true. i am so thankful for that, just like you. and i will fight for that in my mind until the day i keep living again. i want to speak to you of things much greater than what i wocument on these papers..but they deserve action they really do.
He tells me everytime i look at him my pupils get uncontrollably HUGE...it must be true because now i can feel it....
ill never forget where youre at.
REMEMBER that day like a distinct taste in your mouth...the day we went to the park in gainsville by my mothers house..the grassy knoll..the ONE lady..the beautiful trails surrounded by no one playing golf, DRENCHING ourselves in ice cold water from the big plastic orange fountains reserved for golfers. the music-the yeah yeah yeahs..
remember that?
REMEMBER THE ATMOSPHERE..like the first time i fell in love. i do.
like how florida makes me feel."
<3