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[hisxgirlfriend]

bought juliana some skates and knee pads and helmet and elbow pads so she could learn to skate. they were supposed to be on sale for 50% off .... got to the counter - sale doesn't start till tomorrow.... gotta get it anyway, I promised her. So I'm out $50 bucks and she's tired and being cranky and i'm tired and being cranky. I decide to take her to the skating rink... haven't been there in 12 years at least. I imagined I'd hold her hands and push her along and she'd have fun. Me in my regular shoes - yeah... I'm a loser - I don't know how to skate. And so we go out on the floor.. just as pictured. (don't worry - I didn't make her wear the helmet and knee/elbow pads... don't want my kid looking like a dork) I hold her arms so she can balance...my back is starting to hurt. She got brave and wanted to try it on her own....she was incredible.... no really. She took off and started skating as if she'd done it 1000 times before. No stumbling.....I was in disbelief. Then she started spinning around...She's just a natural I suppose. Like 4 different people came up to me and commented on what a good skater she was... 2 asked me how long she'd been skating....my response "umm.. 15 min?". We went to get something to drink. Then she was ready to skate again. We got out to the floor and she said "don't go with me mommy,i'm a big girl". A couple of tears went down my face as she skated away... a weird kind of emotion you just wouldn't understand until you have a kid. It's happy/sad. It's being proud/scared cause they don't need you . She turned around after about 10 feet and skated back to me. She saw one of my tears...she gave me a big kiss and said "don't cry mommy,i can teach you how to skate"

I'd be so empty without my baby.Love means something so totally different now.