Living to die and dying to live
When you are trying to make an important decision that would have a great impact on your life, the guidelines "do what makes you happy", "you know deep down in your heart what is right" , "do what is best for your future" and "in the end it will all work out" etc.
But what happens when there is no right option? What do u do when neither and both is what is best for you but in 2 different ways? What do you do when one option may be the best at the moment, but then later the other might but its too late. Do you wait? And if so, for how long? What if you've already waited too long? When is the moment that you know "everything has worked out"?
How do you abandon something because it's too much to handle but the probability of the outcome of the abandonment may be even be harder on you than that?
What do you do when you the one thing you need more than anything in the whole world is the same one thing that you need to walk away from more than anything?
How do you make yourself stop caring about someone who does nothing but hurt you? What is the emotional or biological factor that causes a human to care for someone?
What do you do when you want to fix things as envisioned but can't?
What do you do when you're absolutely 100% positively STUCK either way.
This is the part of the story when the tears usually come, then depression or maybe even thoughts of suicide - at least in the typical Dayna confronts adversity scenarios.
It does no good to cry or be depressed. Maybe take a little time off and clear your head.... but if i spend my life being depressed about being stuck then I'll miss out on so much more. I'm so glad I have my daughter. She is what eliminates the option of giving up.
How could I give up and surrender myself to a life of depression, regrets, and feeling not good enough when I look at her? Her life is just beginning, and in a sense so is mine.
How can I continue to cry when my life is actually full of things to smile about? like a daughter who serenaded me with "u are so beautiful to me" when I was trying to pee tonight among other random silly things she says and does when you need it most
How can I give up when this beautiful 2 yr old idolizes me and wants to be just like me?
I can't - and I don't want to.
I still don't know what to do about anything really. So I just concentrate on the one thing I do know.... that my daughter is so important to me, and I am important to her. I suppose thats really all I can do. Because I think everything else in my entire life is uncertain. Well, except that I have a nice ass.
So I guess there are 2 things in life that are certain.
But what happens when there is no right option? What do u do when neither and both is what is best for you but in 2 different ways? What do you do when one option may be the best at the moment, but then later the other might but its too late. Do you wait? And if so, for how long? What if you've already waited too long? When is the moment that you know "everything has worked out"?
How do you abandon something because it's too much to handle but the probability of the outcome of the abandonment may be even be harder on you than that?
What do you do when you the one thing you need more than anything in the whole world is the same one thing that you need to walk away from more than anything?
How do you make yourself stop caring about someone who does nothing but hurt you? What is the emotional or biological factor that causes a human to care for someone?
What do you do when you want to fix things as envisioned but can't?
What do you do when you're absolutely 100% positively STUCK either way.
This is the part of the story when the tears usually come, then depression or maybe even thoughts of suicide - at least in the typical Dayna confronts adversity scenarios.
It does no good to cry or be depressed. Maybe take a little time off and clear your head.... but if i spend my life being depressed about being stuck then I'll miss out on so much more. I'm so glad I have my daughter. She is what eliminates the option of giving up.
How could I give up and surrender myself to a life of depression, regrets, and feeling not good enough when I look at her? Her life is just beginning, and in a sense so is mine.
How can I continue to cry when my life is actually full of things to smile about? like a daughter who serenaded me with "u are so beautiful to me" when I was trying to pee tonight among other random silly things she says and does when you need it most
How can I give up when this beautiful 2 yr old idolizes me and wants to be just like me?
I can't - and I don't want to.
I still don't know what to do about anything really. So I just concentrate on the one thing I do know.... that my daughter is so important to me, and I am important to her. I suppose thats really all I can do. Because I think everything else in my entire life is uncertain. Well, except that I have a nice ass.
So I guess there are 2 things in life that are certain.