And the beat goes on
Autumn is upon me and I have no idea how it got here. Did I fall asleep? Or have I been moving at such a high velocity that it just sort of happened? In any case, I'm glad that autumn has finally arrived. It means that I'm back doing things that I love.
It has been a weekend of doing fun things with fun people. Saturday night was Vertex. Got to see a whole bunch of awesome people I haven't seen in quite a long time. Did not do a whole lot of dancing, but there was ample opportunity to have fantastic conversations with very dear people. Today (Sunday) was a picnic in Mt Hope with even more awesome people. Having my family gathered around in the spirit of community/family while eating good food nestled in a cemetery blanketed in mist was an almost magical experience. Its people like these ones that make me very reluctant to leave Rochester. I've really settled in here and made roots. Pulling them up would be quite the emotional blow.
Speaking of settling, I have a tentative plan for after graduation in May. My hope is to stay out here in Rochester, snuggle into a nice studio apartment with a kitten and pursue a teaching position. Once I've achieved a teaching position, I will continue with my education and pursue a Masters in History. If I'm lucky, I can do a dual Masters/Doctorate program and get it all done in one long fell swoop. The even bigger piece of luck would be that the school system I teach for would pay for part or all of my higher education. That would make my life in so many ways. The overall idea though, is to try and stay out here where my family is. I know my biological family will always be there for me and will always have a place for me, but there's really not a whole lot else for me back in Boston any more. Don't get me wrong, I love that city with every little piece of me, but I don't have any friends out there, and I'm far too broke to even remotely consider living there.
In the world of interpersonal relationships, things move along as undefined as ever. The thing with Brian has ended. I just can't maintain a relationship with someone who wants to continuously deride my chosen profession and the students I work with. We just never clicked, either. We could be comfortable, but there was no sense of, yes you fit with me. So that's over and done with. Things with Jason are going pretty well. We've been able to identify and work through a good number of our issues. So we find ourselves back in a very amorphous and undefined sort of relationship. I'm not exactly sure what it is, but it seems to be working. But there's a little black cloud in the corner that is reminding me that there's always the possibility of this blowing up in my face. We'll tackle that when we get there.
For now, I shall continue to dance to the rhythms that exist solely within my spirit.
It has been a weekend of doing fun things with fun people. Saturday night was Vertex. Got to see a whole bunch of awesome people I haven't seen in quite a long time. Did not do a whole lot of dancing, but there was ample opportunity to have fantastic conversations with very dear people. Today (Sunday) was a picnic in Mt Hope with even more awesome people. Having my family gathered around in the spirit of community/family while eating good food nestled in a cemetery blanketed in mist was an almost magical experience. Its people like these ones that make me very reluctant to leave Rochester. I've really settled in here and made roots. Pulling them up would be quite the emotional blow.
Speaking of settling, I have a tentative plan for after graduation in May. My hope is to stay out here in Rochester, snuggle into a nice studio apartment with a kitten and pursue a teaching position. Once I've achieved a teaching position, I will continue with my education and pursue a Masters in History. If I'm lucky, I can do a dual Masters/Doctorate program and get it all done in one long fell swoop. The even bigger piece of luck would be that the school system I teach for would pay for part or all of my higher education. That would make my life in so many ways. The overall idea though, is to try and stay out here where my family is. I know my biological family will always be there for me and will always have a place for me, but there's really not a whole lot else for me back in Boston any more. Don't get me wrong, I love that city with every little piece of me, but I don't have any friends out there, and I'm far too broke to even remotely consider living there.
In the world of interpersonal relationships, things move along as undefined as ever. The thing with Brian has ended. I just can't maintain a relationship with someone who wants to continuously deride my chosen profession and the students I work with. We just never clicked, either. We could be comfortable, but there was no sense of, yes you fit with me. So that's over and done with. Things with Jason are going pretty well. We've been able to identify and work through a good number of our issues. So we find ourselves back in a very amorphous and undefined sort of relationship. I'm not exactly sure what it is, but it seems to be working. But there's a little black cloud in the corner that is reminding me that there's always the possibility of this blowing up in my face. We'll tackle that when we get there.
For now, I shall continue to dance to the rhythms that exist solely within my spirit.