One week and counting
Its been a week since I had any pop. I had really bad migraines for about three days but since then I've been fine. I still crave one now and then and think that it'd taste good but I resist by reminding myself that I don't want to be controlled by caffiene. Damn. I can't spell caffiene correctly sorry.
Anywho, I went to a "screening" appointment this past week at the counseling center. I met with this woman that looked the same age as me and actually just graduated with her degree in counseling. Least to say, I didn't feel compelled to really talk to her. I feel like if I am going to talk about things with a complete stranger I want them to have some whisps of white hair, a few wrinkles, and some wisdom, not someone who's probably younger than me. Thankfully it was just a screening meeting and they have me set up to meet with someone else on Tuesday morning for a full session to try and work some things out. The weird thing is that I feel a little better already. I have been making an effort not to stress about anything anymore and to try and find the joy in things.
I went to a farmers market with a friend this weekend and bought a tomato plant already potted and fenced. I'm super excited to grow my own tomatoes. I also bought a money tree finally so I'm happy about that. Basically I just don't want to feel bad so I am doing everything to feel better that I can do and think of. Sometimes that just means sitting and watching my fish swim in the tank and other times it means slowly biking to campus instead of the stressful hurried bike ride i usually do. Who knows if these are just temporary happinesses but I really hope that they continue.
In order to increase my productivity this week I am going to try and experiment where i come home, eat dinner and get to watch one episode of tv but then at 7, I have to head back to the library to work because that is when I can park on campus for free. This way I wont slip into my tv watching coma or fall asleep. We'll see how it goes but I'm optimistic.
I get to lecture tomorrow and wednesday because my professor is out of town at another university. I'm excited. I can't believe I am going to be doing this every week next year!! Crazy!!
Anywho, I went to a "screening" appointment this past week at the counseling center. I met with this woman that looked the same age as me and actually just graduated with her degree in counseling. Least to say, I didn't feel compelled to really talk to her. I feel like if I am going to talk about things with a complete stranger I want them to have some whisps of white hair, a few wrinkles, and some wisdom, not someone who's probably younger than me. Thankfully it was just a screening meeting and they have me set up to meet with someone else on Tuesday morning for a full session to try and work some things out. The weird thing is that I feel a little better already. I have been making an effort not to stress about anything anymore and to try and find the joy in things.
I went to a farmers market with a friend this weekend and bought a tomato plant already potted and fenced. I'm super excited to grow my own tomatoes. I also bought a money tree finally so I'm happy about that. Basically I just don't want to feel bad so I am doing everything to feel better that I can do and think of. Sometimes that just means sitting and watching my fish swim in the tank and other times it means slowly biking to campus instead of the stressful hurried bike ride i usually do. Who knows if these are just temporary happinesses but I really hope that they continue.
In order to increase my productivity this week I am going to try and experiment where i come home, eat dinner and get to watch one episode of tv but then at 7, I have to head back to the library to work because that is when I can park on campus for free. This way I wont slip into my tv watching coma or fall asleep. We'll see how it goes but I'm optimistic.
I get to lecture tomorrow and wednesday because my professor is out of town at another university. I'm excited. I can't believe I am going to be doing this every week next year!! Crazy!!