Re: A different opinionhistoria78October 15 2009, 19:45:34 UTC
Hey,
I really appreciate that you check up one me and so no, I don't want to delete your comments.
Thanks for the encouragement and I do remember what you have told me. :)
Somedays are just harder than others and this week was pretty low. I think in generally I have more low than high or even middle level weeks out here. The other thing is that I just feel emotionally weak....emotionally exhausted and I'm not sure if it is post-don stuff or depression or what but it takes so much effort to be happy out here and it takes so little to knock me down to where I don't want to do anything.
I feel weak even admitting that there is a problem but I am not sure how to fix it and part of me is wondering if this is all burnout or just another phase.
I have my mom's voice in the back of my mind telling me to suck it up and get working on something but when you are your only motivation, you dont have grades or reputation or anything motivating you anymore its kinda hard to care.
Someone told me, "but you'll be so much smarter than everyone" and honestly I'm like "yeah, its been like that for years, after awhile it doesn't do much for you anymore" I might get my Ph.d. but you can't sleep next to it at night. It can't tell you everything is going to be okay, and in fact, it doesn't even help you get a job in this economy.
but yeah things will get better because they have to and I'll deal. Thanks for hte comments though and a reminder.
I have to say though that your wrong on one point. I know other women have found you attractive.
Gotta run to class and get readings done before hand.
I really appreciate that you check up one me and so no, I don't want to delete your comments.
Thanks for the encouragement and I do remember what you have told me. :)
Somedays are just harder than others and this week was pretty low. I think in generally I have more low than high or even middle level weeks out here. The other thing is that I just feel emotionally weak....emotionally exhausted and I'm not sure if it is post-don stuff or depression or what but it takes so much effort to be happy out here and it takes so little to knock me down to where I don't want to do anything.
I feel weak even admitting that there is a problem but I am not sure how to fix it and part of me is wondering if this is all burnout or just another phase.
I have my mom's voice in the back of my mind telling me to suck it up and get working on something but when you are your only motivation, you dont have grades or reputation or anything motivating you anymore its kinda hard to care.
Someone told me, "but you'll be so much smarter than everyone" and honestly I'm like "yeah, its been like that for years, after awhile it doesn't do much for you anymore" I might get my Ph.d. but you can't sleep next to it at night. It can't tell you everything is going to be okay, and in fact, it doesn't even help you get a job in this economy.
but yeah things will get better because they have to and I'll deal. Thanks for hte comments though and a reminder.
I have to say though that your wrong on one point. I know other women have found you attractive.
Gotta run to class and get readings done before hand.
Thanks Charlie.
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