A different opinion
anonymous
October 15 2009, 03:59:43 UTC
I just wanted to preface this with something. Please feel free to delete my comments if you ever want to. I think some of them have conflicted with your beliefs or things you want to hear and I wouldn't feel bad if you deleted them because they are meant for you anyway. This is your personal writing and I just like to comment to let you know i'm checking up on you.
I would have to condicend with your previous acusations about people not being interested because of your image or whatever.
I think it's just because you are a very unique woman, which is something to be proud of. The only woman that I know of that thought I was ever attractive was you. I'm just lucky becuase its not something that bothers me or has to do with my current goals; so I don't worry about it.
Some people just dont fit into the generic (stupid in my opinon) populations view of what is attractive or interesting. There are so many people that are just plain fucking morons living amongst us. Unfotunately they contrive a large percentage of what all of us generally believe to be what is acceptable, attractive.. the "norm".
I hope when you are feeling like trash you can at least remember my comments about you and your appearance! I think you're special and beautiful. I know you a little better (but not too much anymore) then people that only know you on the surface.
I would immagine it has to be so tough when (I think), your major goals don't have to do with getting your doctorate; but being in love, married, and having children.
As you have alluded to in earlier posts, those people who shortcut these things are going to be in trouble.
I know what a loving and caring person you are, and (although it wont help how you feel) I'm sure you'll end up with those things some how if you really want them.
Re: A different opinionhistoria78October 15 2009, 19:45:34 UTC
Hey,
I really appreciate that you check up one me and so no, I don't want to delete your comments.
Thanks for the encouragement and I do remember what you have told me. :)
Somedays are just harder than others and this week was pretty low. I think in generally I have more low than high or even middle level weeks out here. The other thing is that I just feel emotionally weak....emotionally exhausted and I'm not sure if it is post-don stuff or depression or what but it takes so much effort to be happy out here and it takes so little to knock me down to where I don't want to do anything.
I feel weak even admitting that there is a problem but I am not sure how to fix it and part of me is wondering if this is all burnout or just another phase.
I have my mom's voice in the back of my mind telling me to suck it up and get working on something but when you are your only motivation, you dont have grades or reputation or anything motivating you anymore its kinda hard to care.
Someone told me, "but you'll be so much smarter than everyone" and honestly I'm like "yeah, its been like that for years, after awhile it doesn't do much for you anymore" I might get my Ph.d. but you can't sleep next to it at night. It can't tell you everything is going to be okay, and in fact, it doesn't even help you get a job in this economy.
but yeah things will get better because they have to and I'll deal. Thanks for hte comments though and a reminder.
I have to say though that your wrong on one point. I know other women have found you attractive.
Gotta run to class and get readings done before hand.
I would have to condicend with your previous acusations about people not being interested because of your image or whatever.
I think it's just because you are a very unique woman, which is something to be proud of. The only woman that I know of that thought I was ever attractive was you. I'm just lucky becuase its not something that bothers me or has to do with my current goals; so I don't worry about it.
Some people just dont fit into the generic (stupid in my opinon) populations view of what is attractive or interesting. There are so many people that are just plain fucking morons living amongst us. Unfotunately they contrive a large percentage of what all of us generally believe to be what is acceptable, attractive.. the "norm".
I hope when you are feeling like trash you can at least remember my comments about you and your appearance! I think you're special and beautiful. I know you a little better (but not too much anymore) then people that only know you on the surface.
I would immagine it has to be so tough when (I think), your major goals don't have to do with getting your doctorate; but being in love, married, and having children.
As you have alluded to in earlier posts, those people who shortcut these things are going to be in trouble.
I know what a loving and caring person you are, and (although it wont help how you feel) I'm sure you'll end up with those things some how if you really want them.
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I really appreciate that you check up one me and so no, I don't want to delete your comments.
Thanks for the encouragement and I do remember what you have told me. :)
Somedays are just harder than others and this week was pretty low. I think in generally I have more low than high or even middle level weeks out here. The other thing is that I just feel emotionally weak....emotionally exhausted and I'm not sure if it is post-don stuff or depression or what but it takes so much effort to be happy out here and it takes so little to knock me down to where I don't want to do anything.
I feel weak even admitting that there is a problem but I am not sure how to fix it and part of me is wondering if this is all burnout or just another phase.
I have my mom's voice in the back of my mind telling me to suck it up and get working on something but when you are your only motivation, you dont have grades or reputation or anything motivating you anymore its kinda hard to care.
Someone told me, "but you'll be so much smarter than everyone" and honestly I'm like "yeah, its been like that for years, after awhile it doesn't do much for you anymore" I might get my Ph.d. but you can't sleep next to it at night. It can't tell you everything is going to be okay, and in fact, it doesn't even help you get a job in this economy.
but yeah things will get better because they have to and I'll deal. Thanks for hte comments though and a reminder.
I have to say though that your wrong on one point. I know other women have found you attractive.
Gotta run to class and get readings done before hand.
Thanks Charlie.
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