total 180 from feminism
I told a friend to day that I'm really just buying my time in Grad School till I get married and you know what? Part of me actually feels that way. Some people go to a university to get their Mrs. Degree. We'll that didn't happen during B.A. or M.A. so I guess I'll just keep going in school. The sad part is that the more educated I become the more I weed out possible men. Yuppie and elitist sounding, ya I know, but whatcha gonna do?
There genuinely is a part of me that just wants to get married, get ahouse, a dog, pick out some dishes or something, do holiday crafts, volunteer, read the sunday paper, read for pleasure, relax, be happy, etc. I'm just so not happy doing this schoolwork. I try to be happy but the fact of the matter is that it just doesn't do it for my anymore. I'm exhausted and the reward just isn't really there.
I am praying that teaching in the spring will rekindle my fire for this work, if you will. I don't want to give up when I've come so far, but some days its just not worth it anymore and I'm not sure what to do...cept try to make it through the day and the next day with the hope that it'll get better.
There genuinely is a part of me that just wants to get married, get ahouse, a dog, pick out some dishes or something, do holiday crafts, volunteer, read the sunday paper, read for pleasure, relax, be happy, etc. I'm just so not happy doing this schoolwork. I try to be happy but the fact of the matter is that it just doesn't do it for my anymore. I'm exhausted and the reward just isn't really there.
I am praying that teaching in the spring will rekindle my fire for this work, if you will. I don't want to give up when I've come so far, but some days its just not worth it anymore and I'm not sure what to do...cept try to make it through the day and the next day with the hope that it'll get better.