heart healing.
so i didn't even get a phone call last night or this morning.
i won't see you for 6 days...
this is kind of opening my eyes.
i thought we were doing a lil better?
i guess i was dreaming.
i am so tore up inside. but i have to keep on a game face.
i can't let this bring me down. i can't. i am too strong of a woman.
i never thought this would be happening to us. not us. we were too strong. we had too much.
i wish i had someone to talk to. someone who wasn't going to judge me or him. someone to just listen and hold me. someone to just tell me no matter what happens i will be ok. someone to keep me busy with constructive things to keep my mind off it all.
the drinking i have been doing- isn't going to help. i need to realize that. that is what tore us up in the begginning.
i guess i can only see how things work out when you get back. it will reveal the truth. to stay together or not. either things will be 100% better when you get back or we will both realize it os over. and this is the first time i can honestly say- i don't know how it's going to turn out.
i won't talk to you for six days. and we have never been apart for no more than 3 days. and that even drove us crazy. i know we will both be going insane.
i need to keep busy with productive and healthy things this weekend. maybe it's time for family? i need some healing.
i won't see you for 6 days...
this is kind of opening my eyes.
i thought we were doing a lil better?
i guess i was dreaming.
i am so tore up inside. but i have to keep on a game face.
i can't let this bring me down. i can't. i am too strong of a woman.
i never thought this would be happening to us. not us. we were too strong. we had too much.
i wish i had someone to talk to. someone who wasn't going to judge me or him. someone to just listen and hold me. someone to just tell me no matter what happens i will be ok. someone to keep me busy with constructive things to keep my mind off it all.
the drinking i have been doing- isn't going to help. i need to realize that. that is what tore us up in the begginning.
i guess i can only see how things work out when you get back. it will reveal the truth. to stay together or not. either things will be 100% better when you get back or we will both realize it os over. and this is the first time i can honestly say- i don't know how it's going to turn out.
i won't talk to you for six days. and we have never been apart for no more than 3 days. and that even drove us crazy. i know we will both be going insane.
i need to keep busy with productive and healthy things this weekend. maybe it's time for family? i need some healing.