isn't it a little bit absurd? i think, however, the extreme temperatures are essential to my understanding of new york. this is how it is in summer, so hot as to be completely suffocating. thick & humid & sweaty.
you're gone, i think. i have a nagging feeling that there were things i needed to tell you, or at least needed to explain further. apologise for, maybe. perhaps one day you'll get a letter.
i don't even really know. i just don't think i ever properly explained my bizarre and childish behaviour earlier in the summer. maybe nothing is needed, but this summer has been so strange and disappointing that everything seems very urgent.
michael and i were hoping to see you before you left, explanations aside. ultimately, all of that had everything to do with me & nothing to do with you & upon further reflection, very little to do with michael either. i know we went over this to an extent in june, but i would hate to think that i got in the way of you & michael's relationship by taking out my unrelated anger in a very immature way. so, yes, if you have time, i (/we) would like to see you before you go.
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