..in a time of need;;i turn to the life i knew..
~wow. ok how long has it been since i've been here? i'm far too much of a myspace whore nowadays.. ha.. but it's so much FUN!! ;)
~so the past couple days has been, interesting.. to say the least.. i worked, of course, cause i have 40 effin hours, at SUBWAY.. haha so yeah..
~i felt really sick yesterday for some reason.. it was weird.. but it passed and never fear, i am a-ok.. ;) ha i was working with connie and jeremy dyer came in again.. i said i'd wait on him so i went up to the counter.. he was ordering his sandwiches when the door dinged again and in walks his little brother.. now see, i had thought nate had almost died of a heroine overdose and had brain damage.. but of course, i could be an idiot and that was nick kearenan that that happened too.. i don't know.. but either way.. nate has ABSOLUTELY nothing wrong with him and he was GORGEOUS.. ha i had a HUGE crush on him in high school so i was like 'woah, hot'.. see, the thing i always loved about the dyer kids is that, they were popular yes, but they were also ALWAYS so nice.. for real.. anyway..
~so nate said he didn't want a sub but asked if jeremy could have a side of banana peppers with his.. then he asked if the mobile sold beer.. ha yeah.. we chatted and of course, nate had NO idea who i was.. see, we never talked in school.. he was a year behind me, and not only was he quiet (cause he just was and well, cause he was usually effin stoned ha) but we were in ridiculously different social circles.. so yeah.. connie said something i mentioned that it was ok, cause i went to school with those guys so i could shoot the shit with em.. nate was like "you went to school with me?" and i'm like, "well, technically i graduated with your brother, but yeah.." he asked my name and of course, turned out he remembered my cousin dan.. they were in the same grade.. but of course, he really had no idea who i was.. i really only hung out with ami and melissa.. i was really one of those wallflower kids.. the only thing i let myself out at was drama.. so yeah.. he was so nice and so cute.. seriously, still SOOOOOO gorgeous.. actually, he may be better now.. ;)~ hehehehe next time jeremy comes in ima tell him that i had a huge crush on his lil brother in school.. haha
~then today, was inventory day and our inspector is coming soon, so jan had her son, nick, come in and fix a couple things.. nick happens to be nick stemen, who also was a grade behind at montague.. and tonight, he chose to bring john with him again.. as in john kroll, as in, my ex bf.. hahahaha of course john was giving me shit and being retarded (yeah, he has a rebel flag tattooed on his leg.. makes me giggle) and they hung out for awhile after fixing the thing they had to fix..
~well jan walked out with them to give nick the key to silver lake cause they were gonna go do a few things out there.. and she comes back in and goes "hey amber, john wanted me to mention to you that he's looking for a new roomate and was wondering if you'd be interested.." i was like ::JAWHITSFLOOR:: wtf!?!?!? hahaha i busted out laughing, i couldn't even help it.. at first i thought it was joke, ya know.. cause he made some piggish comment about cleaning being a womans work, which i think he was joking, but still.. ya never know.. and so i thought it was just a funny ha ha type of thing.. nope, turns out he's serious.. he was like "she could switch to the whitehall subway.." ummmmmm o.O why the hell would i want to move in with my EX bf from like, almost 10 YEARS ago that i only dated for like 2 weeks and whom i haven't seen since i graduated!?!?!? weird shit.. i told jan to tell him i couldn't move to whitehall, but thanx for the offer.. i wanted to say "tell him if he wants to sleep with me so bad, he could've just asked to hang out sometime instead of asking me to MOVE IN with him.. it'd be a lil less weird..." ha not that i think i'd have sex with him anyway.. o.O again, kinda weird.. tho, he still isn't really bad looking.. ha
~ok, la de da.. weird day..
~jamie also came in today with bubba.. it was SOOOOOOOO nice to see them.. i miss them so much :( ever since nathan broke up with me i've not seen much of his family.. and i miss them!!!!!!!! i absolutely LOVE them.. when uncle bill came in i was ecstatic.. so of course, jamie and i chatted and i asked (cause i'm far too fucking nice) how nathan was doing.. cause he was at her house watching the other kids while she came up there.. she drove his car too so i FINALLY got to see it.. ha! SOOOOOOOO ugly.. it's a 1985 FIERO!! it's older than he is and it looks like a damn matchbox car.. the spoiler is almost bigger than the car.. it made me giggle.. jamie was like "don't worry, i laughed too.." ha.. bubba was showing me all the weird lil things about it.. and me and jamie were chatting.. she told me to come see her ANYTIME i wanted, that i was welcome there whenever.. awesome.. :) i miss hanging out with them.. i also made a bit of a joke about nathan hating me and she goes "he doesn't hate you.. trust me.." and bubba goes "no, he's just an IDIOT" haha bubba just turned 12 today.. he's so kewl.. ha.. anyway.. jamie said something like "i think he just got paranoid.. seriously.. he realized how serious things were and he got paranoid.. he wasn't ready for that, he's not at all ready for a serious relationship.." which, pretty much is what i figured out anyway.. i told her not to ever tell him cause he'd prolly hate it, ha, but that i figured it all out, cause i know him better than he thinks.. ::sigh:: ridiculous this whole thing is..
~but i love jamie.. she's seriously one of those type of people that, even tho nathan is her family, if he's being an idiot or he's wrong, she's not going to back him just because he's family.. she didn't back him on the thing with me, especially how he treated me for awhile.. and she still says he's an idiot, but that he's just not ready.. and she's scared about him leaving..
:( which i knew.. and it makes me sad.. but he DID tell her about my accident.. which totally destroy nate's whole "he never talks about you, doesn't even mention you" thing.. so HA! of course he wouldn't talk about me to a GUY friend.. pssh.. boys don't do that.. but obviously he talks about me, at least a lil, even if it just a mention of something that happened to me, to jamie.. :) that makes me feel a bit better, cause it kind of proves that no matter what anyone else fucking says, i'm right about that whole thing..
~anyway.. so yeah.. weird couple of days.. for sure.. and i'm a bit tired.. i have to go in 2 hours early tomorrow.. ima have almost 50 hours by the time i'm done >:)~ that rocks.. mmmmm money.. and karaoke sunday.. i went to michaels for karaoke this past sunday.. so much fun :) and maybe i'll go friday or saturday night, depending what time i get out, see if hottie jared is there and maybe i can hit on him this time ;) hehe
~i need to flirt.. for real.. i haven't in a LONG time.. i have to force myself a bit, weird as that is.. cause it's weird, it's like, i don't even want too.. i'm totally broken.. ew..
~so the past couple days has been, interesting.. to say the least.. i worked, of course, cause i have 40 effin hours, at SUBWAY.. haha so yeah..
~i felt really sick yesterday for some reason.. it was weird.. but it passed and never fear, i am a-ok.. ;) ha i was working with connie and jeremy dyer came in again.. i said i'd wait on him so i went up to the counter.. he was ordering his sandwiches when the door dinged again and in walks his little brother.. now see, i had thought nate had almost died of a heroine overdose and had brain damage.. but of course, i could be an idiot and that was nick kearenan that that happened too.. i don't know.. but either way.. nate has ABSOLUTELY nothing wrong with him and he was GORGEOUS.. ha i had a HUGE crush on him in high school so i was like 'woah, hot'.. see, the thing i always loved about the dyer kids is that, they were popular yes, but they were also ALWAYS so nice.. for real.. anyway..
~so nate said he didn't want a sub but asked if jeremy could have a side of banana peppers with his.. then he asked if the mobile sold beer.. ha yeah.. we chatted and of course, nate had NO idea who i was.. see, we never talked in school.. he was a year behind me, and not only was he quiet (cause he just was and well, cause he was usually effin stoned ha) but we were in ridiculously different social circles.. so yeah.. connie said something i mentioned that it was ok, cause i went to school with those guys so i could shoot the shit with em.. nate was like "you went to school with me?" and i'm like, "well, technically i graduated with your brother, but yeah.." he asked my name and of course, turned out he remembered my cousin dan.. they were in the same grade.. but of course, he really had no idea who i was.. i really only hung out with ami and melissa.. i was really one of those wallflower kids.. the only thing i let myself out at was drama.. so yeah.. he was so nice and so cute.. seriously, still SOOOOOO gorgeous.. actually, he may be better now.. ;)~ hehehehe next time jeremy comes in ima tell him that i had a huge crush on his lil brother in school.. haha
~then today, was inventory day and our inspector is coming soon, so jan had her son, nick, come in and fix a couple things.. nick happens to be nick stemen, who also was a grade behind at montague.. and tonight, he chose to bring john with him again.. as in john kroll, as in, my ex bf.. hahahaha of course john was giving me shit and being retarded (yeah, he has a rebel flag tattooed on his leg.. makes me giggle) and they hung out for awhile after fixing the thing they had to fix..
~well jan walked out with them to give nick the key to silver lake cause they were gonna go do a few things out there.. and she comes back in and goes "hey amber, john wanted me to mention to you that he's looking for a new roomate and was wondering if you'd be interested.." i was like ::JAWHITSFLOOR:: wtf!?!?!? hahaha i busted out laughing, i couldn't even help it.. at first i thought it was joke, ya know.. cause he made some piggish comment about cleaning being a womans work, which i think he was joking, but still.. ya never know.. and so i thought it was just a funny ha ha type of thing.. nope, turns out he's serious.. he was like "she could switch to the whitehall subway.." ummmmmm o.O why the hell would i want to move in with my EX bf from like, almost 10 YEARS ago that i only dated for like 2 weeks and whom i haven't seen since i graduated!?!?!? weird shit.. i told jan to tell him i couldn't move to whitehall, but thanx for the offer.. i wanted to say "tell him if he wants to sleep with me so bad, he could've just asked to hang out sometime instead of asking me to MOVE IN with him.. it'd be a lil less weird..." ha not that i think i'd have sex with him anyway.. o.O again, kinda weird.. tho, he still isn't really bad looking.. ha
~ok, la de da.. weird day..
~jamie also came in today with bubba.. it was SOOOOOOOO nice to see them.. i miss them so much :( ever since nathan broke up with me i've not seen much of his family.. and i miss them!!!!!!!! i absolutely LOVE them.. when uncle bill came in i was ecstatic.. so of course, jamie and i chatted and i asked (cause i'm far too fucking nice) how nathan was doing.. cause he was at her house watching the other kids while she came up there.. she drove his car too so i FINALLY got to see it.. ha! SOOOOOOOO ugly.. it's a 1985 FIERO!! it's older than he is and it looks like a damn matchbox car.. the spoiler is almost bigger than the car.. it made me giggle.. jamie was like "don't worry, i laughed too.." ha.. bubba was showing me all the weird lil things about it.. and me and jamie were chatting.. she told me to come see her ANYTIME i wanted, that i was welcome there whenever.. awesome.. :) i miss hanging out with them.. i also made a bit of a joke about nathan hating me and she goes "he doesn't hate you.. trust me.." and bubba goes "no, he's just an IDIOT" haha bubba just turned 12 today.. he's so kewl.. ha.. anyway.. jamie said something like "i think he just got paranoid.. seriously.. he realized how serious things were and he got paranoid.. he wasn't ready for that, he's not at all ready for a serious relationship.." which, pretty much is what i figured out anyway.. i told her not to ever tell him cause he'd prolly hate it, ha, but that i figured it all out, cause i know him better than he thinks.. ::sigh:: ridiculous this whole thing is..
~but i love jamie.. she's seriously one of those type of people that, even tho nathan is her family, if he's being an idiot or he's wrong, she's not going to back him just because he's family.. she didn't back him on the thing with me, especially how he treated me for awhile.. and she still says he's an idiot, but that he's just not ready.. and she's scared about him leaving..
:( which i knew.. and it makes me sad.. but he DID tell her about my accident.. which totally destroy nate's whole "he never talks about you, doesn't even mention you" thing.. so HA! of course he wouldn't talk about me to a GUY friend.. pssh.. boys don't do that.. but obviously he talks about me, at least a lil, even if it just a mention of something that happened to me, to jamie.. :) that makes me feel a bit better, cause it kind of proves that no matter what anyone else fucking says, i'm right about that whole thing..
~anyway.. so yeah.. weird couple of days.. for sure.. and i'm a bit tired.. i have to go in 2 hours early tomorrow.. ima have almost 50 hours by the time i'm done >:)~ that rocks.. mmmmm money.. and karaoke sunday.. i went to michaels for karaoke this past sunday.. so much fun :) and maybe i'll go friday or saturday night, depending what time i get out, see if hottie jared is there and maybe i can hit on him this time ;) hehe
~i need to flirt.. for real.. i haven't in a LONG time.. i have to force myself a bit, weird as that is.. cause it's weird, it's like, i don't even want too.. i'm totally broken.. ew..