..you smiled with a snowflake on your nose;;and the world melted..
~what a lovely evening. :)
~today i had the day off and nathan had money so he wanted to take me to a movie.. OF COURSE we decided on "walk the line".. we've both been wanting to see that since long before it came out..
~i picked him up at jamies at about 6 and we were planning on stopping by dani's to see her so we took off.. we hung out at frans for a few minutes and then invited danielle to go with us since she looked bored and like she just needed to get out.. so we took off.. sometime between when we left frans and got to ludington the weather went STRAIGHT to hell.. ew..
~the movie started at 705.. we got our tickets, nathan bought us drinks and me chocolate covered almonds (MMMMMMM) and we went and sat down.. the movie was BRILLIANT.. omg, it was a beautiful movie.. i knew it would be.. nathan said it was a wonderful movie and i got all teary eyed at the end and it just, wow.. they did a great job.. we were bopping in our seats when he sang and me and nathan totally sang "ring of fire" to each other when he sang it.. so awesome.. if anyone has NOT seen "walk the line", GO! NOW! omg, it's great.. haha i need a johnny cash CD like, yesterday.. and oh, it was kewl as shit to see shooter jennings playing waylon.. rock the hell on ;)
~we left the theater after putting our coats on and headed out.. nathan asked for my keys and told me and danielle to wait inside while he warmed up the car and cleaned it off.. well, dani had to smoke so we just stepped outside.. nathan had taken my chapstick from me in the movie and used it and then stuck it into the pocket of his coat that i've been wearing.. so of course, standing out in the cold, i reached in to get it and lo and behold there's a box in there.. i was like ?!?!?!?!!.. so i pulled it out and dani is watching me and nathan is across the parking lot cleaning the car off and i go "danielle... my pocket has grown something.." and it was a square black box and my heart like, started racing and danielle smiled and i go.. "did you know about this??" and she goes "yes" and i'm like "what is it!?" and she's like "well, it's cute.. but it's NOT a Christmas present.." (cause i told nathan i did NOT want anything cause i can't get anyone anything and that was after he'd bought it..).. so i opened it and inside is this beautiful silver bracelet.. it's got pretty casual links and then there's 2 lil cubin zirconias and then 2 silver hearts in the middle and he had my initials engraved onto the one.. it's gorgeous.. not too fancy, but pretty.. i felt like crying..
~at first i asked if dani wanted to put it on me and instead i decided to have nathan do it.. i walked to him and he could see that i'd found it, so he smiled huge and i smiled and hugged him in the middle of the parking lot and told him he was a brat and giggled and he goes "it's NOT a Christmas present.. it's just, for you.." and i'm like "ok.. it's wonderful.. are you going to put it on me?" so he did.. and he kissed me and it was precious.. i have never ever gotten jewelry or anything romantic or sweet like that from a guy before.. it was very butterflies in the tummy, flip you upside down kind of feelings.. it was, well, just wonderful :*) i haven't taken it off.. i don't know if i will.. i might just leave it on besides showering..
~we finally left i took them home, after stopping here to show my mom, she was thrilled.. haha of course.. and then braved the terror that was the weather back to hart.. dropped of dani in pwater.. took nathan to jamies and talked to her and his other cousin jessica (who is a total sweety) for a lil while.. jamie knew about it.. i guess her daughter kayla went with him to pick it out for help ;) she's like 8.. awww.. haha we talked about nathan's mom and such and i got to know jessica a bit..
~so yeah, i guess it's official.. nathan's mom just doesn't like me.. she can't get over the whole age thing.. she said she didn't like it.. then she asked to meet me.. then complained.. then said for him to bring me out there.. i finally met her, she was TOTALLY nice and i got along with her fine.. she told nathan she liked me, thought i was sweet and all this and then, a few days later started complaining again.. when nathan said it jessica he just said "well, mom doesn't like amber.. and that's just not acceptable.." so yeah.. he wouldn't tell me much cause he knows it'd bother me and i'd let it get to me.. he mentioned tho that she told him something about i was sitting at the bar area and the guys were over at the table shooting the shit and stuff and someone said something or did something and i was like "pssh, boys.." ya know, like saying how they can be silly.. and she laughed.. but i guess she took it all like i was saying nathan's a boy and all this bull.. dude, if it was a table full of 40 year old men i'd still say BOYS! that's just how i TALK!!!!! ::gettingannoyed:: and i just plain refuse to second guess myself and rethink what i'm going to say in worry of offending her or her taking it wrong.. screw that.. i will just not go around her.. and nathan has always had a weird relationship with his mom.. she's got this attitude where she likes to instigate fights and shit and then she HAS to have the last word and i guess she pisses people off ALL the time.. so nathan said when she gets like that, he just steers clear for awhile.. and he siad he thinks they're just going to kinda grow apart.. he said it happened before.. i don't know..it's just silly.. she's the ONLY one of his fam that has any problem.. his dad LOVES me.. everyone that i've met on his dads side of the family thinks i'm great and yeah, they were kinda like 'woah' when they found out, but they met me and they think i'm very kewl and they think i'm sweet and all this.. jessica invited us over for new years eve..
~i asked nathan if anyone else disapproved.. and he said no, just his mom.. and i was like 'cause it would kinda suck if everyone else was being nice to me and all this and then actually they disapproved when it came down to it' and he goes 'no, that's the side of the family that i get the whole, if i don't like you, you KNOW it thing from.. if they didn't like you, or disapproved or thought ANYTHING bad, you'd KNOW it and that's just that, there's no being fake about it..' i was glad to hear that cause so far, i LOVE his family.. they're great people and they're fun.. and they're very VERY nice.. laid back and such.. so i guess, i don't know.. i should just stick to his dad's side.. ha.. i guess dawn's(his mom) husband even likes me and thinks i'm kewl.. and by the way, bear, her husband, is like 7 and half years YOUNGER THAN HER.. bleh.. owell..
~ya know, i decided it's ok.. i told wookie this last night, cause he thinks it's a lil weird.. cause he's known nathan for YEARS.. and i was like 'ya know, i decided something wookie..' and he goes 'yeah?' and i was like 'yeah.. i decided, it's ok if you think it's a lil weird or whatever.. it's ok if you think me and nathan are strange.. ya know why? ::wookie raises eyebrows:: because 1) i will still love you as the wookie.. and 2) i don't need your fucking approval to do a damn thing in my life.. ::SMILES::" he was like 'alright then..' and just kinda smiled.. then he made a comment about how he was going to be honest, that he had just kinda wanted nathan for himself.. he's so odd.. ha i told him i didn't think he's nathan's type.. wookie is WOOKIE-ISH.. and well, nathan is just too pretty for him.. ha!! yeah, he's effin gorgeous, BTW..
~when i get paid i am buying a roll of film and going BANANAS on nathan with it.. for real >:)~ hehe
~ok, i should go.. i need to get some sleep for work tomorrow.. :)
~so remember.. go see "walk the line", RIGHT NOW.. and well, just remember to always live for yourself and make sure you're happy and you feel good about your life, cause more often than not, no matter what, no one else is going to.. do what you feel and live how want.. and be comfortable and willing enough to say, i don't need anyone's approval to find my happiness.. that's just how life should be :) c'est la vie..
::KISSES::
i love you all!! hope you're well!!
.muchlove.
~today i had the day off and nathan had money so he wanted to take me to a movie.. OF COURSE we decided on "walk the line".. we've both been wanting to see that since long before it came out..
~i picked him up at jamies at about 6 and we were planning on stopping by dani's to see her so we took off.. we hung out at frans for a few minutes and then invited danielle to go with us since she looked bored and like she just needed to get out.. so we took off.. sometime between when we left frans and got to ludington the weather went STRAIGHT to hell.. ew..
~the movie started at 705.. we got our tickets, nathan bought us drinks and me chocolate covered almonds (MMMMMMM) and we went and sat down.. the movie was BRILLIANT.. omg, it was a beautiful movie.. i knew it would be.. nathan said it was a wonderful movie and i got all teary eyed at the end and it just, wow.. they did a great job.. we were bopping in our seats when he sang and me and nathan totally sang "ring of fire" to each other when he sang it.. so awesome.. if anyone has NOT seen "walk the line", GO! NOW! omg, it's great.. haha i need a johnny cash CD like, yesterday.. and oh, it was kewl as shit to see shooter jennings playing waylon.. rock the hell on ;)
~we left the theater after putting our coats on and headed out.. nathan asked for my keys and told me and danielle to wait inside while he warmed up the car and cleaned it off.. well, dani had to smoke so we just stepped outside.. nathan had taken my chapstick from me in the movie and used it and then stuck it into the pocket of his coat that i've been wearing.. so of course, standing out in the cold, i reached in to get it and lo and behold there's a box in there.. i was like ?!?!?!?!!.. so i pulled it out and dani is watching me and nathan is across the parking lot cleaning the car off and i go "danielle... my pocket has grown something.." and it was a square black box and my heart like, started racing and danielle smiled and i go.. "did you know about this??" and she goes "yes" and i'm like "what is it!?" and she's like "well, it's cute.. but it's NOT a Christmas present.." (cause i told nathan i did NOT want anything cause i can't get anyone anything and that was after he'd bought it..).. so i opened it and inside is this beautiful silver bracelet.. it's got pretty casual links and then there's 2 lil cubin zirconias and then 2 silver hearts in the middle and he had my initials engraved onto the one.. it's gorgeous.. not too fancy, but pretty.. i felt like crying..
~at first i asked if dani wanted to put it on me and instead i decided to have nathan do it.. i walked to him and he could see that i'd found it, so he smiled huge and i smiled and hugged him in the middle of the parking lot and told him he was a brat and giggled and he goes "it's NOT a Christmas present.. it's just, for you.." and i'm like "ok.. it's wonderful.. are you going to put it on me?" so he did.. and he kissed me and it was precious.. i have never ever gotten jewelry or anything romantic or sweet like that from a guy before.. it was very butterflies in the tummy, flip you upside down kind of feelings.. it was, well, just wonderful :*) i haven't taken it off.. i don't know if i will.. i might just leave it on besides showering..
~we finally left i took them home, after stopping here to show my mom, she was thrilled.. haha of course.. and then braved the terror that was the weather back to hart.. dropped of dani in pwater.. took nathan to jamies and talked to her and his other cousin jessica (who is a total sweety) for a lil while.. jamie knew about it.. i guess her daughter kayla went with him to pick it out for help ;) she's like 8.. awww.. haha we talked about nathan's mom and such and i got to know jessica a bit..
~so yeah, i guess it's official.. nathan's mom just doesn't like me.. she can't get over the whole age thing.. she said she didn't like it.. then she asked to meet me.. then complained.. then said for him to bring me out there.. i finally met her, she was TOTALLY nice and i got along with her fine.. she told nathan she liked me, thought i was sweet and all this and then, a few days later started complaining again.. when nathan said it jessica he just said "well, mom doesn't like amber.. and that's just not acceptable.." so yeah.. he wouldn't tell me much cause he knows it'd bother me and i'd let it get to me.. he mentioned tho that she told him something about i was sitting at the bar area and the guys were over at the table shooting the shit and stuff and someone said something or did something and i was like "pssh, boys.." ya know, like saying how they can be silly.. and she laughed.. but i guess she took it all like i was saying nathan's a boy and all this bull.. dude, if it was a table full of 40 year old men i'd still say BOYS! that's just how i TALK!!!!! ::gettingannoyed:: and i just plain refuse to second guess myself and rethink what i'm going to say in worry of offending her or her taking it wrong.. screw that.. i will just not go around her.. and nathan has always had a weird relationship with his mom.. she's got this attitude where she likes to instigate fights and shit and then she HAS to have the last word and i guess she pisses people off ALL the time.. so nathan said when she gets like that, he just steers clear for awhile.. and he siad he thinks they're just going to kinda grow apart.. he said it happened before.. i don't know..it's just silly.. she's the ONLY one of his fam that has any problem.. his dad LOVES me.. everyone that i've met on his dads side of the family thinks i'm great and yeah, they were kinda like 'woah' when they found out, but they met me and they think i'm very kewl and they think i'm sweet and all this.. jessica invited us over for new years eve..
~i asked nathan if anyone else disapproved.. and he said no, just his mom.. and i was like 'cause it would kinda suck if everyone else was being nice to me and all this and then actually they disapproved when it came down to it' and he goes 'no, that's the side of the family that i get the whole, if i don't like you, you KNOW it thing from.. if they didn't like you, or disapproved or thought ANYTHING bad, you'd KNOW it and that's just that, there's no being fake about it..' i was glad to hear that cause so far, i LOVE his family.. they're great people and they're fun.. and they're very VERY nice.. laid back and such.. so i guess, i don't know.. i should just stick to his dad's side.. ha.. i guess dawn's(his mom) husband even likes me and thinks i'm kewl.. and by the way, bear, her husband, is like 7 and half years YOUNGER THAN HER.. bleh.. owell..
~ya know, i decided it's ok.. i told wookie this last night, cause he thinks it's a lil weird.. cause he's known nathan for YEARS.. and i was like 'ya know, i decided something wookie..' and he goes 'yeah?' and i was like 'yeah.. i decided, it's ok if you think it's a lil weird or whatever.. it's ok if you think me and nathan are strange.. ya know why? ::wookie raises eyebrows:: because 1) i will still love you as the wookie.. and 2) i don't need your fucking approval to do a damn thing in my life.. ::SMILES::" he was like 'alright then..' and just kinda smiled.. then he made a comment about how he was going to be honest, that he had just kinda wanted nathan for himself.. he's so odd.. ha i told him i didn't think he's nathan's type.. wookie is WOOKIE-ISH.. and well, nathan is just too pretty for him.. ha!! yeah, he's effin gorgeous, BTW..
~when i get paid i am buying a roll of film and going BANANAS on nathan with it.. for real >:)~ hehe
~ok, i should go.. i need to get some sleep for work tomorrow.. :)
~so remember.. go see "walk the line", RIGHT NOW.. and well, just remember to always live for yourself and make sure you're happy and you feel good about your life, cause more often than not, no matter what, no one else is going to.. do what you feel and live how want.. and be comfortable and willing enough to say, i don't need anyone's approval to find my happiness.. that's just how life should be :) c'est la vie..
::KISSES::
i love you all!! hope you're well!!
.muchlove.