Mar 11, 2005 01:57
It has to do, specifically, with FFXI, but it can be applied to any number of things that aren't actually real life.
Mostly these days it's been Liz who sets it off.
Liz likes to explore. By that I mean she goes into level 60 areas at level 29 and wonders why she dies in three seconds, tops. I don't actually care what she does with herself in that respect, so long as she doesn't whine incessantly when she delevels again.
It's that she actually goes there.
I mean, I have huge wanderlust. I walked to Windurst one day at level ...13, I think, from the middle of the Dunes. Because I wanted to. I love to explore Vana'diel (or "insert random other thing/world/whatever" here). Admittedly, I generally do it with either items or levels enough to not get myself killed several times over, but, like I said, as long as she doesn't whine, I don't care about that.
But... When Liz goes out... She goes as Liz.
I'm well aware of how stupid that sounds, for the record.
I... like to think, anyway, that, when I go exploring, I'm doing it as Hisime. That's Hisime exploring. That's Hisime whose heart just started racing because she has no idea what is going on and is just a tad frightened by that black void that just sucked in those people. That's Hisime who gets an adrenaline rush when she's aggro'd and has to flee for the zone (thief as main or not =P). That's Hisime who doesn't want to die, who tries to take care of herself, who wants to learn what's going on with the Emptiness that's starting to eat away at reality. That's not me. That's Hisime. [Though, really, I was certainly working myself into a knot as I watched that scene in Promyvion. But, think; it makes no sense for me to panic. I am perfectly safe. Hisi's the one who might just be walking into her own death. ....damnit!! Promyvion is creepy!!]
That's Hisime who rrrrrolls her "r"s when she speaks sometimes when she's not paying attention.
I think it's safe to say I've been role-playing a character when I walk away from it and still find myself acting like the character. Mannerisms, mostly. Some of her /emotes... It doesn't bother me nearly as much as it probably should.
Liz doesn't do that. Any of it. Liz goes out and kills things to see if she can and if she dies, eh. Whatever. There's no panic when her hp hits red and the monster seems to have more health left, no adrenaline when she runs for the zone, no fear when she explores strange new areas. Nothing. Just, "oh, yay! Pretty!"
I mean, I do that, too, but I do the "pretty" thing while keeping myself safe.
I'm not exactly sure why this bothers me as much as it does. I mean, Jack doesn't do the rp-thing, and I'm fine with it.
Maybe it's because he has that "common sense" thing.
Did that make any sense?