dance when im all alone
Click to viewi havent been myself! cos its just hard, you know. throw me into camp and i guess thats what you get, people around me, the things we're made to do and the people under whom we do these things..i dont know! i dont even know where im getting at with this. i dont feel free like i used to when i used to write so honestly about the things that were dear to me. there was this once i was just praying and i gave up, i said you know what God? i dont know man..i dont know what say you dear God? GO ahead! give me the silent treatment! i got nothing! no feelings for my life my family myself.. maybe its just a passing cloud? a phase, so to speak. john frusciante went through some depressing shit. mother theresa felt the void inside for the longest time ever. but its different i wasnt meant to have clouds that we walk ourselves under, against our will.clouds were meant to pass. in fact now that i think about it, could it be a cloud thats gonna be here for as long as i dont do anything? that is so depressing. we were meant to live with a cream green guitar in our hands and the crowd under our feet. but apparently, we suck. like i said, i dont know. i dont know how long this clouds gonna be hereand i dont know how and when? i dont quite like it. it doesnt make me feel good it makes me feel alone.
i've never said this but for years nowi havent had a really close friend. the sort who'd let me swim free like a fish in the sea. back when i was in secondary school i had noel and russell but along the way our thinking changed. we kept in contact but it just hasnt been the same.