it is almost official.

[hisfinallament]

i am very close to a decision that will be hard for a lot of people, but most of all it will be very difficult for me to make and follow through.

tomorrow I am going to someone that I know will let me know if I am being rational or not, and then I will know if my decision is the right one.

i just can't bring myself to think that this is happening. I can't believe that i am going to be in this situation. i've never felt like this before and I don't know what to do with myself.

i just wish this would be a lot easier.