Jan 29, 2005 20:27
I really wish you could turn back time. If I could I would have never started dating Greg. He has given me more heartache than happiness. I am the one person on this earth that knows him the best and he still acts like he never knew me at all. I just don't understand how someone can be so cold, heartless and selfish. I did nothing but give him my whole heart and he took it and threw it away. I am the reason he has a job and that he is in fire school. If it weren't for me he would be at the lamp store smoking pot. But now he has the upper hand and he knows it. I hate it. Kelley asked me last night why I would even want him back. I really had no answer. I don't want the Greg he is now. But I wish he was the Greg he used to be. The Greg that only wanted me and made me feel pretty. Now he only makes me feel ugly and worthless. I know I am a better person and a stronger person than this. I shouldn't let him get to me that way. But I do anyway...