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[Milliways] OOM: Capital City, Eiattu

Oct 10, 2007 08:57

She could barely believe it when Rial's servant had dropped them off in front of the low-lying, bulbous, pale beige coloured hotel building on the bay. When she and James had entered their assigned suite, it had been like entering a dream. This flat was more luxurious than anything either could ever afford. And, Rial had promised that it was ( Read more... )

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callitavesper October 10 2007, 23:44:17 UTC

All in all, this vacation was fantastic. It was a rare occasion when James forgot who he was supposed to be, forgot all the danger and death that permeated his life and enjoyed life for what it was. This had been the case ever since they begun their trip. James refused to complain about it. He was so pleased with the trip that he hadn't stopped smiling. He was smiling widely as he returned to their room, relaxed and pleased with his personal excursion into the city.

"Sarah?"

his_sarah_jane October 10 2007, 23:54:16 UTC

What you're suggesting could tear a hole in our universe.

She doesn't want to be responsible for that any more than she wants to be responsible for losing their child by going home. Sarah Jane shakes her head, blinking back tears. Eiattu is beautiful. James keeps smiling. She wants to go back to being happy. She loves it here. She loves their honeymoon.

But there are tears now. There are finally tears. So Sarah doesn't respond, sobbign into her hands instead.

callitavesper October 11 2007, 01:59:47 UTC

"Sarah...?" The smile vanishes. He quickens his pace towards Sarah, not stopping until he's next to her, turning her towards him in a protective hug.

his_sarah_jane October 11 2007, 02:05:39 UTC

Sarah Jane needs this hug. She needs the reminder of why she made this sacrifice (even if she hadn't realised it at the time) to begin with. Being in his arms is that reminder. The Doctor was right about this too. Every time he holds her, she knows her home is with James in her heart.

But the need to cry still persists as she hugs him back tightly. There's so much she wants - Can't I get a proper goodbye? - so much she can't have.

Finally, after what seems like forever, she whispers, "I can't go back home anymore, James."

callitavesper October 11 2007, 02:13:26 UTC

He cups his hand beneath her chin, forcing her to look up at him. "Sarah, you can go home. You're with me, now. I am your home."

his_sarah_jane October 11 2007, 02:16:15 UTC

She knows that. It's why she made the decision she did.

Sarah shakes her head slightly, almost frightened. "But... if something... the Doctor says our child can't live there. That I can't even anymore."

James is her home now. But her world was her home for twenty four (mostly) wonderful years. And there's still so much she hasn't been able to retrieve: keepsakes and photos and the like.

She doesn't ever want to forget where she came from.

callitavesper October 11 2007, 02:17:20 UTC

"What are you talking about?"

his_sarah_jane October 11 2007, 02:19:37 UTC

Wide eyed with a quiet bordering on frantic, "I changed my timeline, James. I'm not supposed to have a child. I'm not even supposed to get married."

callitavesper October 11 2007, 02:28:04 UTC

"Who the hell told you that?"

his_sarah_jane October 11 2007, 02:31:46 UTC

"The Doctor."

And he, of course, knows everything. Mystical Timelord and all that.

callitavesper October 11 2007, 02:44:13 UTC

"So what does he think you're supposed to do with your life?"

his_sarah_jane October 11 2007, 02:51:50 UTC

Sarah Jane shrugs. Truth is, she doesn't know. She never wanted to ask.

"Be alone, I suppose."

There's more she wants to say. It's at the tip of her tongue. But in her current state, it doesn't come.

callitavesper October 11 2007, 02:53:40 UTC

James scoffs. "For what? For him?"

his_sarah_jane October 11 2007, 02:55:21 UTC

Another shrug.

"He... he said if I go back, I might lose the baby. I could tear a whole in the universe."

Sarah shakes her head, staring up at him for support. The Doctor's voice keeps echoing in her head. She wants it to go away. She wants it gone so horribly much.

"...didn't mean to muck up, James. Muck up time and space and all of that bloody stuff. I just liked loving you."

callitavesper October 11 2007, 03:02:19 UTC

"You didn't muck up time and space--"

Pause.

"--all right, I haven't the slightest about time and space. I honestly don't care. I also don't give two shits about what the Doctor says. Sounds like he cares about how he thinks things should be more than he does anything else. Anyone else."

his_sarah_jane October 11 2007, 03:11:42 UTC

Sarah shakes her head. She's had a year and a half of valuing the Doctor's opinion more than anyone else's. It's a hard habit to break.

Her eyes are wide again as she stresses, "I could rip a whole in my universe. Just because I want to say goodbye."

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