(no subject)

[his_darling_pet]

I hate you right now,
I hate you more then you can imagine
I hate that you took the healing that i managed over the weekend and turned it into hurt and anger
i hate what you've done
i hate you
i hate the shitty feeling of being supplanted by an inanimate thing
i hate you right now
i hope you wake up in the morning and read this and realize how much hurt you've caused
i hate everything about you right now
i hope you never do this again
i hate your lack of control
i hate your lack of sense
i hate you so much right now
i hope you see what an ass you made of yourself
i hate you right now
i wish i could turn back the clock and beat some sense into you earlier
i hate that you had to try to prove something
i hate that the something you had to prove was so stupid
i hate you right now
i hate the people who encouraged you
i hate you right now
i hate the way you've made me feel
i hate how much you hurt me
i hate you so fucking much right now

I can only hope that this has not been a night beyond repair.. i hope i can find a way to not hate you by tomorrow... but i hate that you've even made me hate you this much...

fuck you and the way you made me feel, fuck you and your need to prove something, fuck you for hurting me.