You wouldn't think
That it could be so hard for just one person to look beyond stereotypes and gender expectations and just love another person the way they want to be loved back. To understand monogamy, and desire it, is almost unheard of at my age. Everyone just uses age, gender, or personality as an excuse. It's always an excuse. People are so blind they can't see that they are missing out on the things in life that matter, the only thing that matters because they're "too young" or just too fucking stupid to realize personality isn't making poor decisions carelessly. I truly feel sorry for people who call themselves men yet they are still little immature boys that have no clue how to treat a woman. Sometimes I feel like I will end up settling for a hollow hole of a life one day just so I stop getting my feelings hurt. Or maybe I'll just stop feeling all together for something I once saw myself on fire with love for. I'm so sick of not being good enough, pretty enough, skinny enough because it really just sucks to feel that way. It makes you want to quit working towards everything you want. It makes you just want to surrender.