Warning: Angst Ahead
I realized I really haven't updated in a few months. Little has happened in that time. The squishy child has grown and is very well mannered for 5 month old: surprisingly little fussing and crying, but the boy can drool like nobody's business.
I'm loathe to use my lj in this way, but lately I've been feeling a bit of what ayeshak had been feeling a few months ago. I feel a bit directionless, lost, and lonely. Ironically, despite being lonely, I've been severely neglecting my social life because I've been even more introverted than usual. Sadly because of that what little social life I had is withering. What's worse is that I'm feeling hyper-aware of my introversion and still can't do much of anything about how debilitating it feels even though I logically know that it's quite silly and I like socializing and get along with many people. Apologies to all I have been remiss in keeping in touch with.
In happier news (because I'd rather end this up than wallowing), I've had an idea for a young adult story (probably of short novel length) revolving around a girl, her grandfather's secret library, and a labyrinth. After a bit of note taking and a painful period trying to learn my protagonist's name (turns out it's Dahlia Llewellyn) I've started organizing and sketching out chapter outlines. I'll start seriously setting down some prose (not necessarily at the beginning) soon, after I have finished piecing together what I think the ending will be. It's much easier to see something like this through with a possible ending target in mind. If I don't have that target my stories tend to start wandering and grow out of control. (Just sharing this has already improved my mood)
Other good news: A Scanner Darkly was a great movie and the single best Philip K. Dick movie adaptation I've ever seen.
I'm loathe to use my lj in this way, but lately I've been feeling a bit of what ayeshak had been feeling a few months ago. I feel a bit directionless, lost, and lonely. Ironically, despite being lonely, I've been severely neglecting my social life because I've been even more introverted than usual. Sadly because of that what little social life I had is withering. What's worse is that I'm feeling hyper-aware of my introversion and still can't do much of anything about how debilitating it feels even though I logically know that it's quite silly and I like socializing and get along with many people. Apologies to all I have been remiss in keeping in touch with.
In happier news (because I'd rather end this up than wallowing), I've had an idea for a young adult story (probably of short novel length) revolving around a girl, her grandfather's secret library, and a labyrinth. After a bit of note taking and a painful period trying to learn my protagonist's name (turns out it's Dahlia Llewellyn) I've started organizing and sketching out chapter outlines. I'll start seriously setting down some prose (not necessarily at the beginning) soon, after I have finished piecing together what I think the ending will be. It's much easier to see something like this through with a possible ending target in mind. If I don't have that target my stories tend to start wandering and grow out of control. (Just sharing this has already improved my mood)
Other good news: A Scanner Darkly was a great movie and the single best Philip K. Dick movie adaptation I've ever seen.