Sick bee update!
I just can't help feeling like such a complete loser! How dare I think everything was getting better. I feel like everything is going downhill and it's never going to get better. The women in my community shun me. I've been shunned before. For whatever reason, this feels worse than anything crap I went through in school. I thought this behavior ended in high school. Guess I was wrong.
It's worse feeling isolated when you have a kid. My son is the most interaction I get all day. I really want DS winter break to hurry up and get here so I can go to CI and chill out! I'm so depressed and lonely. I feel so unwell. I keep trying to give everything to Hashem but then something crazy, stupid, hurtful, and/or humiliating comes up next. I don't know what to do anymore because I've become a pretty hate machine that snaps at anything in its path!
Tomorrow, I'm going to try and mop up the mess at my IRL school. Go to JFS and pick up the food pantry package. Go to Social Services and straighten out my food stamps and medical transportation. Go to legal aid to look after the security deposit from two apartments ago that I can't get back.
Plus, I'm sending my home health aide down to malkaesther's place to pick up some pots and dishes she's generously lending out. Also, T is going to the UPS warehouse to pick up my Shaklee Get Clean Starter Kit. I've never been so enthused about cleaning products.
I found the numbers of three neurologists in NB. All easily accessible via train.
Looks like another busy day for the sick bee...
It's worse feeling isolated when you have a kid. My son is the most interaction I get all day. I really want DS winter break to hurry up and get here so I can go to CI and chill out! I'm so depressed and lonely. I feel so unwell. I keep trying to give everything to Hashem but then something crazy, stupid, hurtful, and/or humiliating comes up next. I don't know what to do anymore because I've become a pretty hate machine that snaps at anything in its path!
Tomorrow, I'm going to try and mop up the mess at my IRL school. Go to JFS and pick up the food pantry package. Go to Social Services and straighten out my food stamps and medical transportation. Go to legal aid to look after the security deposit from two apartments ago that I can't get back.
Plus, I'm sending my home health aide down to malkaesther's place to pick up some pots and dishes she's generously lending out. Also, T is going to the UPS warehouse to pick up my Shaklee Get Clean Starter Kit. I've never been so enthused about cleaning products.
I found the numbers of three neurologists in NB. All easily accessible via train.
Looks like another busy day for the sick bee...