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Okay...
So I've noticed something about my self.
The way I whip out advice like I'm Dr. Phil-ette,
or someone that knows everything about everything, cuz I observe and remember everthing that happens around me.
I feel like i know just how first love,
and second love ought to be.
And when love is real,
and when its just an "illusion"
And when/how/why we get over things... or people.
And when "i love you" is said insincerely
and when its really meant, with your heart and head behind all three words.
And i have this idea in my head
that I know what love is.
and how people really do love from different angles,
and its different to everyone.
YETTTT.
Back to actions speak louder than words,
none,
i repeat none,
of my actions have ever showed that I would know anything about anything.
Here i am with this awful, awful attatchment disorder,
to some boy, that as far as everyone else can see may not treat me A+++
and that sure maybe I could find another, wait i have found others, that are wonderfulll,
yet I'm always running back to the past,
cuz with a simple kiss on the cheek I realize i'm not meant to be with any one else.
not right now,
maybe... not ever... ??
And now I wonder,
if its possible to fall in love
with your first love
all over again.
To have it be a completely different situation,
relationship,
everything,
but with the same person.
I've thought that words like never, or forever, or always shouldn't be said, cuz they're promises, promises that cant be afforded to be broken.
But with him, i just can't help but... break all the rules.
fgda97gyfsa
It's like we were never apart...
hudsaghds
my appologies for being so lame,
and... stupid.
<3
So I've noticed something about my self.
The way I whip out advice like I'm Dr. Phil-ette,
or someone that knows everything about everything, cuz I observe and remember everthing that happens around me.
I feel like i know just how first love,
and second love ought to be.
And when love is real,
and when its just an "illusion"
And when/how/why we get over things... or people.
And when "i love you" is said insincerely
and when its really meant, with your heart and head behind all three words.
And i have this idea in my head
that I know what love is.
and how people really do love from different angles,
and its different to everyone.
YETTTT.
Back to actions speak louder than words,
none,
i repeat none,
of my actions have ever showed that I would know anything about anything.
Here i am with this awful, awful attatchment disorder,
to some boy, that as far as everyone else can see may not treat me A+++
and that sure maybe I could find another, wait i have found others, that are wonderfulll,
yet I'm always running back to the past,
cuz with a simple kiss on the cheek I realize i'm not meant to be with any one else.
not right now,
maybe... not ever... ??
And now I wonder,
if its possible to fall in love
with your first love
all over again.
To have it be a completely different situation,
relationship,
everything,
but with the same person.
I've thought that words like never, or forever, or always shouldn't be said, cuz they're promises, promises that cant be afforded to be broken.
But with him, i just can't help but... break all the rules.
fgda97gyfsa
It's like we were never apart...
hudsaghds
my appologies for being so lame,
and... stupid.
<3