uninspired and growing tired why am I always so attracted to drama?

[hipslikesalsa]

I think that if my mom didnt put me down so much i wouldn't be so unhappy.
but see i'm glad that she has for awhile, becuase then i would take her not putting me down for grantit,
but now that she has for days, months, years...
i wouldnt take it for grantit, and i would very much appreciate a "good job" a pat on the back.. you know, the works...
cuz seriuosly, that gets me down so much,
and the only other thing that gets me down,
is the usual teenage agnst,
and once my hormones level out and i'm not a basket case [[haha]],
how could i not be all around... happy?
but instead i have to wake up convinced i'm a failure.
my mom is so good at making me believe it... grrrrr
but if it really bothers me so much,
then why dont i just change myself?
maybe cuz its nice to know someone likes you for being you, ya know? ... being average.
and not Miss A+++ child that she wants.
i dunno, just a thought.

and i miss me my jeskaaaa!!!!
and my meagannnn,
but janice is home, YAY!

oh yeah movie night that never happened...
How does july 2nd sound?
it can also be a "Yay, i'm done with sumemr school" celebration!