My mother is bat shit crazy.
So i went to my cousin's 18th birthday bash which included a large amount of family, friends, and my uncles band playing til 1am. There was dancing all night, drinks, food, music, and good times with good people. I saw an awesome cousin of mine that i hadn't seen in over 10 years! It was great!
So I called my mother today to ask her if she wanted to hang out some... and she asked how the party was. I told her about it and she got pissed off at me. You see, the party I went to was for my mom's side of the family which she does not talk to much or associate with because of a falling out she had with my aunt (her brother's wife) over some drama my mom had with my aunt's best friend who she used to work with. follow all that?! no? well, it took me a while to get it too. anyway, my mom was pissed for hanging out with her family because she claims that I'm just doing it to hurt her. WTF?! so, my dad's side of the family are a bunch of fake assholes that do not give a shit about me and she gives me a hard time if I don't visit them but if I visit her side, she claims I'm doing it out of spite! UGH. The thing is, my mom's family is the only family that I can be myself around. They love me for ME. They don't give a shit about what brands I wear or what my status is or if my nails are done. They have been nothing short of kind, accepting, and loving. My mother is NONE of those things.
On top of all that, I guess my sister's (the asshole animal abuser one) wedding was yesterday and my mom is PISSED OFF that I didn't go yet NO ONE FUCKING INVITED ME. Don't get me wrong, I really didn't want to go and I don't care that I missed it, but my mom blames me even though I did not receive any sort of formal or informal invitation from her. She acts like I chose to go to my cousin's bday instead yet I had no clue when my sister's wedding was. I'M NOT A GODDAMN MIND READER!!!! I feel like she should be pissed at my sister for not inviting me, but no... I should have known with my nonexistent telepathy and should have invited myself. yep...
I'm a fucking fool if I EVER think my mother is going to change. She will ALWAYS be this horrific, self absorbed, irrational, unloving, cold, insecure, hypocritical, sad little person. Nothing outside of her matters. The world revolves around my mother. And she tries her best to make sure I do not forget it.
FML.
So I called my mother today to ask her if she wanted to hang out some... and she asked how the party was. I told her about it and she got pissed off at me. You see, the party I went to was for my mom's side of the family which she does not talk to much or associate with because of a falling out she had with my aunt (her brother's wife) over some drama my mom had with my aunt's best friend who she used to work with. follow all that?! no? well, it took me a while to get it too. anyway, my mom was pissed for hanging out with her family because she claims that I'm just doing it to hurt her. WTF?! so, my dad's side of the family are a bunch of fake assholes that do not give a shit about me and she gives me a hard time if I don't visit them but if I visit her side, she claims I'm doing it out of spite! UGH. The thing is, my mom's family is the only family that I can be myself around. They love me for ME. They don't give a shit about what brands I wear or what my status is or if my nails are done. They have been nothing short of kind, accepting, and loving. My mother is NONE of those things.
On top of all that, I guess my sister's (the asshole animal abuser one) wedding was yesterday and my mom is PISSED OFF that I didn't go yet NO ONE FUCKING INVITED ME. Don't get me wrong, I really didn't want to go and I don't care that I missed it, but my mom blames me even though I did not receive any sort of formal or informal invitation from her. She acts like I chose to go to my cousin's bday instead yet I had no clue when my sister's wedding was. I'M NOT A GODDAMN MIND READER!!!! I feel like she should be pissed at my sister for not inviting me, but no... I should have known with my nonexistent telepathy and should have invited myself. yep...
I'm a fucking fool if I EVER think my mother is going to change. She will ALWAYS be this horrific, self absorbed, irrational, unloving, cold, insecure, hypocritical, sad little person. Nothing outside of her matters. The world revolves around my mother. And she tries her best to make sure I do not forget it.
FML.