To many thoughts that reach out to nowhere but a dead end

[hips_n_hearts_7]

I woke up today
Still in a dream
Camera flashes in my eyes
Money in my pocket
A gun in one hand
A dream in the other
And a fork in the road

I wanna be that La girl
Who grew up in city
Surrounded by music and art
And inspired by something so dull

I want to be all dolled up
And feel what its like to shine
In the darkness

I wanna wake up and be told
I’ve been in a comma
For the past 7 years

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Remember when cassette tapes where in
Now the label as worn off that reads forget me

Remember the inside jokes that made you laugh
Now you can barely remember them let alone laugh at them

Remember when you had to have Adidas socks
And when you bought them you somehow showed them off
Underneath the pant leg

Remember the lies
And how they tore everyone up
The scars still stick out today

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Stuck in a fog
Loss of time
Loss of awareness
Loss of reality
The heat won over us all
No one stood tall
All shying away into the corner
As if we where all afraid to show the inside
To quite to cry
To hot to move
To tired to laugh
But never to out of it to love
__________________________

I checked my phone it read no new messages
I felt unloved and unwanted
And felt like the worn label on the cassette tape
Forget me...

Keep on li/oving
<3
Xo crystal Xo