Anything Shittier?
So I feel like shit. Dan was already in a funk before I left for NY... and I didn't want to leave him because at this point in his life he really needs to be hanging out with somebody... but nobody's there for him to hang out with. It was hard enough just thinking about leaving him before all this crappy crap happened. I suck balls... and I'm horrible at being.
Also... I called him while I was in a state yesterday. If nobody gets the sentence... whatever, but he wasn't too happy... he wanted to have a real conversation with me and I was retarded as one of the kids that my step mom works with... and that's damn retarded. I wanted to have a real conversation with him too... I'm just the biggest douche in the world... somebody please help me from fucking up my relationship...I don't want to fuck it up... I love him so much... I never want to lose him over something this stupid... I'm so stupid.
Damn... I'm sorry guys. I should get going... but everybody else is asleep in this house and I don't know what to do... wait for Dan to call me I guess... that's what I was planning on doing. I suck.
I suck balls.
Big donkey ones...
Have a good day...
Also... I called him while I was in a state yesterday. If nobody gets the sentence... whatever, but he wasn't too happy... he wanted to have a real conversation with me and I was retarded as one of the kids that my step mom works with... and that's damn retarded. I wanted to have a real conversation with him too... I'm just the biggest douche in the world... somebody please help me from fucking up my relationship...I don't want to fuck it up... I love him so much... I never want to lose him over something this stupid... I'm so stupid.
Damn... I'm sorry guys. I should get going... but everybody else is asleep in this house and I don't know what to do... wait for Dan to call me I guess... that's what I was planning on doing. I suck.
I suck balls.
Big donkey ones...
Have a good day...