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I tried so hard to be responsible this summer...keep the drinking to a minimum, hold two jobs, save money, not hook up with random boys.... I was really happy living this way up untill 2 days ago. I don't know what happened.. I got really stressed out after a 16 hour day, ended up having way too many drinks at a friends house, and decided to not go into work the next morning. I was pretty happy with my job at the Georgetown Inn...i mean it was housekeeping and all, but overall the people i worked with were nice, and the pay was pretty good. I just totally lost it and flaked out,, and quit. I feel bad about it and all, but to ease my guilt i spent the entire day searching for new employment, and decided to work full time at the internet cafe untill i get a second job. I have a lot of growing up to do.
I have a discusting hickey on my neck...i feel like i'm 16 again...I really hope i'm not loosing control and falling into another summer full of good times, too many drinks, and too much reckless spending. I have University and a trip to save up for. I kissed a boy (and more) and for some reason i feel bad about it. I mean, it was all in good fun, but I still have a thing for Kyle. Just when i thought I was getting over him he sends me this cutesy e-mail saying how badly he wants to stay in touch and all. I really do aswell, but after not hearing from him for a little while i just assumed that he moved on....hmm.....
You and me
Were at some goldfish pond
And I
I was tagging along for the ride
This ugly big-mouthed fish really made us laugh
And while I stood still
I felt a chill
I thought that maybe you did too
I wanted to feel that way forever
And that's why
If you're looking at me
I'll try
To be what you want to see
And if I
If I'm ever that lucky
You won't have to be so
You won't have to be so sad
Last night
I was trying to read in bed
I got to watching you sleep instead
Even when I got tired I couldn't stop
Because I love you so
And I pray you know
But I'm not one for praying
You knew I couldn't say that without making a joke
And that's why
If you're looking at me
I'll try
To be what you want to see
And if I
If I'm ever that lucky
You won't have to be so
Won't have to be so sad...
P.s. Check out Yo La Tengo if you haven't already....great band!