Good times
Going back about 200 entries on your own LJ, just to see how far you've come, is an interesting experience. Mainly, tracking your own changes in beliefs, attitudes, temperaments and ability to form a sentence and coherent thoughts.
That brief, dark stint a year or two back, where I had a critical meltdown was particularly interesting, considering the previous posts telegraphed it. I knew it was coming, at that point, but was in denial, like a lot of problems leading up to that point. What has become a real anvil from reading all this, is realizing there was a period after the recovery where I was doing meditation and had a sense of real drive to improve myself and be confident, and then Iraq happened, and a few months after that, my motivation went to shit, again.
Not this time, buddy. Pay attention to your own telegraphs this time, Hippodog. Get your ass back into shape, or I'll subconsciously KILL YOU! RWAR! Who the hell do you think you are?
That brief, dark stint a year or two back, where I had a critical meltdown was particularly interesting, considering the previous posts telegraphed it. I knew it was coming, at that point, but was in denial, like a lot of problems leading up to that point. What has become a real anvil from reading all this, is realizing there was a period after the recovery where I was doing meditation and had a sense of real drive to improve myself and be confident, and then Iraq happened, and a few months after that, my motivation went to shit, again.
Not this time, buddy. Pay attention to your own telegraphs this time, Hippodog. Get your ass back into shape, or I'll subconsciously KILL YOU! RWAR! Who the hell do you think you are?