Hair today, goon tomorrow.
I am reminded of the silly Crosby, Stills, Nash, and Young song "Almost Cut My Hair."
I was just standing in front of my dresser mirror with my hair tucked under a favorite hat of mine. Anyone who was at The Great TiP Reunion saw it during the Mr./Ms. TiP contest. It's one of those girlified newsboy kind of hats. Brown and beige. I wanted to see how it would look with most of my hair tucked under it. Not half bad. And I started thinking about my hair. Why I grow it so long and keep it and even dye it bright red. And I figured something out.
I use my hair to separate myself.
I'm so afraid of being lost in the throng that I want ways to be strikingly different from other people. That, more than anything (even how much I just love how pretty it is and how fun to braid and whatnot), is what keeps me from cutting it. It's part of one of my biggest faults...my ever growing need to make myself interesting.
So I thought for a minute about cutting it.
You know, coming back from break with a brand new look, liberating myself. My friend Jen shaved her head last year as a sort of cleansing ritual and found it very refreshing. I would never shave my head, but the renewal idea is very appealing.
But I won't do it. I'm too scared.
I was just standing in front of my dresser mirror with my hair tucked under a favorite hat of mine. Anyone who was at The Great TiP Reunion saw it during the Mr./Ms. TiP contest. It's one of those girlified newsboy kind of hats. Brown and beige. I wanted to see how it would look with most of my hair tucked under it. Not half bad. And I started thinking about my hair. Why I grow it so long and keep it and even dye it bright red. And I figured something out.
I use my hair to separate myself.
I'm so afraid of being lost in the throng that I want ways to be strikingly different from other people. That, more than anything (even how much I just love how pretty it is and how fun to braid and whatnot), is what keeps me from cutting it. It's part of one of my biggest faults...my ever growing need to make myself interesting.
So I thought for a minute about cutting it.
You know, coming back from break with a brand new look, liberating myself. My friend Jen shaved her head last year as a sort of cleansing ritual and found it very refreshing. I would never shave my head, but the renewal idea is very appealing.
But I won't do it. I'm too scared.