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the weekend will be the hardest part.
i didn't go over tonight even though i wanted to so badly, i haven't kissed you since sunday even though i wanted to so badly. tell me whyyy i have to be the one to end things even though you broke up with me and crushed me into a million pieces.
im not apologizing for anything anymore. i have to act like i dont care, i have to push you away, and i can't think of a single thing harder than this. just remember i love you so much, more than i've ever loved anyone, more than i can imagine loving anyone. and i could have loved you for the rest of my life if you would have let me. but i can't anymore.i wish i could make you understand.
goals for the near future:
keep working out
STOP LISTENING TO TAYLOR SWIFT it's making me overly emotional
do school work instead of playing tetris/listening to taylor swift (and crying)
more girl hang out time, or anyone besides ryan hang out time
i didn't go over tonight even though i wanted to so badly, i haven't kissed you since sunday even though i wanted to so badly. tell me whyyy i have to be the one to end things even though you broke up with me and crushed me into a million pieces.
im not apologizing for anything anymore. i have to act like i dont care, i have to push you away, and i can't think of a single thing harder than this. just remember i love you so much, more than i've ever loved anyone, more than i can imagine loving anyone. and i could have loved you for the rest of my life if you would have let me. but i can't anymore.i wish i could make you understand.
goals for the near future:
keep working out
STOP LISTENING TO TAYLOR SWIFT it's making me overly emotional
do school work instead of playing tetris/listening to taylor swift (and crying)
more girl hang out time, or anyone besides ryan hang out time