my apology to you.
i see all of the pictures of her and of you & her in your room. i still hear stories that either she told you, or involve her. i know your parents adore her & her family. and even though you don't say it, i know when i say something mean about her, it hurts your feelings.. i see it on your face.
she has every memory in your heart.. in fact, she is the only one that has a key to a very deep place in your heart; a place that i can never enter, change, or erase. she's got every romantic movie (or any movie at that), every love song, every slow dance, every trip, every sports game, every family gathering, every formal, every inside joke, every argument with a complimenting make-up kiss... for the past year and a half. she got to share birthdays, christmases, new years, and even valentines days.
my heart is broken. i can never have those memories for myself. i cant help but think sometimes that when you look at me, you really see her. college is coming up and we both know the inevitable, but i just have to wonder why things have to end just when they start to get good. nothing will ever be able to replace the fun times we've had together these past months, nor the months to come. it is a depressing, never-ending cycle for me. im at the point of almost having you all to myself, yet i know, because of circumstances, i figure i will never get anywhere past where im at at this moment. she's got your past and i doubt if i will ever be able to measure up to that by having your future.
so this letter is truly an apology. im sorry. im sorry for everything. these past 6 months have been very complicated and filled with confusion. im sorry for coming back into your life at an inconvenient time. i brought nothing but stress. she was your best friend... and not purposely, i changed that. i took away everything you were used to. im sorry; i took away the love of your life and did nothing but wreck hers. i apologize for wanting to be involved in every part of your life, but i just want assurance and satisfaction that i mean as much to you as you do to me.
she has every memory in your heart.. in fact, she is the only one that has a key to a very deep place in your heart; a place that i can never enter, change, or erase. she's got every romantic movie (or any movie at that), every love song, every slow dance, every trip, every sports game, every family gathering, every formal, every inside joke, every argument with a complimenting make-up kiss... for the past year and a half. she got to share birthdays, christmases, new years, and even valentines days.
my heart is broken. i can never have those memories for myself. i cant help but think sometimes that when you look at me, you really see her. college is coming up and we both know the inevitable, but i just have to wonder why things have to end just when they start to get good. nothing will ever be able to replace the fun times we've had together these past months, nor the months to come. it is a depressing, never-ending cycle for me. im at the point of almost having you all to myself, yet i know, because of circumstances, i figure i will never get anywhere past where im at at this moment. she's got your past and i doubt if i will ever be able to measure up to that by having your future.
so this letter is truly an apology. im sorry. im sorry for everything. these past 6 months have been very complicated and filled with confusion. im sorry for coming back into your life at an inconvenient time. i brought nothing but stress. she was your best friend... and not purposely, i changed that. i took away everything you were used to. im sorry; i took away the love of your life and did nothing but wreck hers. i apologize for wanting to be involved in every part of your life, but i just want assurance and satisfaction that i mean as much to you as you do to me.